I'm in a hyper mode now

Well, sep is coming, but that's not the reason why.

I watched BB on KHTV yesterday but due to the poor reception I only got some glimpse of the ending, though I saw what happened. Right now I've just finished and wow, I love how aggressive Naoki is. Woo! *laughs* Great Acting Pi!!! :)

I have many thoughts running in my head but I don't know how to pen them down. I've decided, I want to go back to my old self already. Somehow I'm tired of being.. I don't know. I feel that I'm taking things for granted, AGAIN. I thought too highly of myself. I'm just a nobody. I'm not someone indispensable. I'm not sure if I can be that firm when I see everyone tomorrow but, I want to try. I want to bring that distance back again. Somehow shortening the distance between everyone makes me feel uncomfortable now. Because it feels like I'm faking too much.

I don't know what to do now. I feel like a hypocrite. I know I meant it when I say "thanks", but when I use it so frequently, it doesn't mean anything anymore. To the state where I doubt myself whenever the word comes out from my mouth. Every time I say "thanks", I question myself right after, if I really meant it.

I'm really being doted by them too much. I have to know my limits.

But even though I've said so much above, I still miss them and I want to chat with them so much. It's that kind of feeling whereby you feel that someone treats you as a person who is more than just someone unimportant in their lives. I don't know if I made sense in my previous sentence. Probably I'm just feeling lonely now. I just need some attention on myself.

I'm a little amazed at how at one moment I was so hyper about Pi's acting yet the other moment I'm so down.

Number of Days

On the right, I have a count down timer to nov 21, even though I wasn't planning to quit that time. Anyway, can't believe that the number of days decreased from 200 to now even less than a hundred. Time really flies.

Soon September is coming, I need to plan some things already. Of course I'll say it's an important month to me because it's my month :) There are many things I wanted to do.

-Surprise for friends and colleagues
-Outing and celebration

So I'm going to plan a little on my outing/celebration here now. In fact, I shall list down the things I wanted to do and see which are more feasible. Because I'm only having a day off anyway.

-Meet Crystallised!
-Meet Xuan and Mai and Bren!
-Sing K?
-Eat Tofu Cheese Cake! (I have plans for this already! Yeah! I hope I remember what I wanted to do!)
-What else?

I have no life. *laughs* Because I can't even think of what to do for my special month. Never mind, please give me some ideas! :)

There goes my money

And they say, "Buses come in threes", don't they?

After my "H1N1" ordeal, here comes more complications.
Toothache. But not a toothache. Argh.
Pulpa necrosis I heard from the dentist, I hope I spelt that correctly.
Yeah, I was almost correct, "Pulpal Necrosis", he said.

Never mind about that. I just want to note down the fact that I spent $100 knowing I may have pulpal necrosis as well as having a thorough teeth cleaning. Yeah.

My teeth are shiny white now by the way~ Yeah~ :)

EDIT: And shucks, I have no space for my wisdom teeth. -_-|||

Work

There goes my Performance Allowance. There goes a PH.

I don't know. I'm actually feeling a little lonely not able to go work. Somehow going to work, mingling with the people there has become part of my daily routine.

Someone is leaving, again. How not to feel depressed.

PA starting soon, but I'm hoping I won't get in, then I shall ask for refund and ask Yihua to join me in Ikoma.

You gain some, you lose some.

3rd day of Medical Leave

Temp went back to 38.4C last night. Panicked. Both ears blocked so much that couldn't sleep whole night. So painful that I even cried a little this morning. Finally with another dose of med I managed to sleep.

Temp is now 37.7C. This means my fever has not subsided yet, does it mean I'll have to go hospital eventually?

Just when my temp dropped to 37.3 yesterday. ARGH.

I shall visit the GP later, if he refers me to the hospital, then I'll go hos tonight.

*Praying hard that it's not H1N1 or H3N2 or whatever*

Probably I was thinking too much afterall

The doctor scared me by saying I need to go TTS if my fever doesn't subside by Thursday. I even checked the price, the details and all. I know the testing costs $250 but fully paid by government. I just need to pay some fees of $85. Never mind about that already, because thankfully, my fever has subsided (I think?). I just hope it stays that way. And 5 more days at home. I'm just going to rot.

I'm pessimistic

probably 1 wk later, this blog no longer updates.
My phone no longer rings
Your phone no longer rings with my name
I do not exist on earth anymore.

Will I have to go hospital eventually?

or is google chrome giving me the probs instead?

typing style a little dif today because i'm lazy and tired..

i worked non-stop (i guess?) for 2 wks and look what I've got myself into?

Argh. Fever, cough and flu. It better not be anything serious.

it started from sat..

argh..

thank goodness i have 2 days off..

But then, they need me tonight..

Should i go back, and with a fever which may spread to them as well?

I wonder..

i believe blogger has problems

It is affecting my mood a little but just that little, because there's something that brightened my day and is still brightening my life now.

I bought Nokia N86 White FINALLY!!! :)

More details next time, since blogger is giving me prob~