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NEWSのみんなへ

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Maureen（モリン）~

Everyone in NEWS, do come to Singapore someday? There are many NEWS fans in Singapore! I'm waiting for NEWS to hold a concert here~ There are many delicious food in Singapore too! Please continue to work hard! I hope that i can watch KUROSAGI in Singapore as well^^ Do remember to visit Singapore!! I love NEWS!! NEWS is the best!

PS: Please mention this in ur diary ne~ (if possible.. =P)

ＮＥＷＳのみんな、いつかシンガポールに来ますね

！ここはたくさんＮＥＷＳのファンがいますよ！私はここにＮＥＷＳのコンサートが開くを待っていますね～　ここもたくさん美味しいの食べ物がありますよ！頑張ってください！シンガポールもクロサギを見るを希望しています＾＾シンガポールに遊びに来ますを覚えていますね！ＮＥＷＳが大好きです！ＮＥＷＳ最高！

ＰＳ：日記にこれについてを言いますクダサイ～（出来るいけば＝Ｐ）

NEWS的每位，哪天一定要来新加坡！这里有很多NEWS的歌迷哦！我还在等着NEWS来这里开演唱会~这里也有很多美食！请加油！我希望也能在新加坡看到KUROSAGI的电影^^记得要来新加坡哦！我最爱NEWS了！NEWS最棒！

PS：请在日记里提到这封信~ （可以的话=p）

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Jessica（ジェシカ）~

NEWS, you are my ichiban! I've never loved anyone as much as you :D

ＮＥＷＳ最高！ＮＥＷＳが何よりも大好きですね！:D

NEWS最高！我喜欢NEWS胜过一切！:D

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Siyuan（シユアン）~

NEWS, WE SINGAPOREAN FANS LOVE YOU!
NEWS, i love you! please come to singapore to hold a concert soon! singaporean fans welcome you!

ＮＥＷＳ，シンガポールのファンはあなたたちが大好きです！
ＮＥＷＳが大好きです！シンガポールにコンサートを開きますください！シンガポールのファンはＮＥＷＳを歓迎してくれます！

NEWS， 我们新加坡的歌迷爱你们！
NEWS， 我爱你！请到新加坡开演唱会！我们欢迎你们！

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Peijun（ペイジュン）~

Dear minna of NEWS (including Kusano and Uchi),
We really hope that you guys will hold a concert in Singapore.
Even though it's a small island,
we really hope to see you here someday ^^
Please work hard! We will always support you! (^◇^)

親愛なるニュースのみんな（含むkusanoとuchi ）
私たちは本当にＮＥＷＳがシンガポールにコンサートを開きますを希望してみます！シンガポールは小さい、でもいつかここにＮＥＷＳを見たを希望しています＾＾頑張ってください！私たちはいつもＮＥＷＳを支持します！（ ^ ◇ ^ ）

亲爱的NEWS的成员（包括草野和内），我们真的很希望你们能在新加坡开演唱会。即使只是一个小岛，我们真的很希望哪天能在这里看到你们^^
请加油！我们会永远支持你们！(^◇^)

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Mai（マイ）～

Hello! I hope that one day NEWS will be able to come to Singapore to hold a concert.... All us fans are waiting!!

Ganbatte kudasai!

こんにちは！いつかＮＥＷＳはシンガポールに来ます。そして、コンサートを開くを希望したいます。ファンのみんなは待ってしています！！

頑張ってください！

你好！我希望哪天NEWS能来到新加坡开演唱会…… 我们歌迷全部都在等待着！！

请加油！

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シンガポールのファンから

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Damn it

i knew it.. she did it.. what more can i say? its so obvious!! my goodness.. hmmm.. let's see if she contacts me.. i know she wont.. haha.. well, what can i say? learned my lesson? well, she's.. i dono.. we shall see.. its jus soooooooooooooo obvious.. frankly.. i dono how to face her now.. hmmm.. shld i act as if i dono anything? maybe i shld.. haha.. well.. now, i need to get back my $6..

and there she was saying that at least make the numbers positive before ending..

my foot!

:PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP i'm starting to hate her.. really..

frankly.. i'm tired of it.. from the start, i thought maybe i can jus try a little bit, and see how it goes.. and finally, i realised it not feasible at all.. all along i've been trying hard to do it your way, and i have put in much effort in it.. how can you do it without letting me know beforehand? of course, you wanted a new start, and indeed, i wanna end it.. but how can you do it without feeling a little guilty of what you've done? i'll take it as you have no time to inform me.. i'm going to wait.. wait till the day you confess to me..

and i always wonder, if you had cheated me without me knowing it.. i have intuitions as well.. i can feel it.. i jus didn wan to make it clear.. sometimes acting blur is ok, but not too much.. i can sense it.. please.. and also, i wonder if you are really interested to be friends with me.. cuz i feel, there is no sincerity.. maybe we started out wrongly.. if you wanna save the friendship, do it now.. before i really condemn you.. rest assured, i will not expose ur true colours to anyone yet.. but when i think that you're too overboard, i'm going to do something about it.. jus wanna let you know.. i'm kinda of disappointed with you.. or maybe you are with me as well.. i may not know it.. nonetheless, i guess i learned something from this.. never trust a person too much..

Life can be amazing

wow.. i got the shock of my life.. ok.. my day maybe.. yanxuan smsed me.. which i missed cuz my phone wasn near me.. when i look at the msg, she jus say something bout "fangrui ask you join us".. *shocked*

cannot come back to reality yet.. its kinda strange how life manipulates ur ups and downs.. nvm.. haha.. ureshii? hai! ureshii desu!

No Life

well, i read some blogs jus now.. and suddenly i realised something.. I Have No Life.. this is saddening enough.. *cries* calvin had been trying soooo hard to tell me that i have no life, and i didn realise it till now.. how nice..

to me, no life refers to living without paying attention to what is happenin around one.. argh.. recently, what had i really paid attention to? idols, school, computer/laptop, internet, idols.. what else? this is what i mean by no life.. *devastated*

i certainly have to thank this person who made me realised this.. after reading her blog entries, i realised she did many reflections.. what happened to me? i used to reflect on many things.. look what idolism has done to me.. i totally became someone having no life.. (though i'm not stopping this fandomlism.. haha..) well it seems that she faced many obstacles during these few years.. well, we used to be good friends.. so it sort of.. strange.. readin her blog entries, with the thought of not being her friend anymore.. i even had to change the way i address her now.. cuz i'm not comfortable with the name i used to use to call her..

maybe i shld use the chinese blog to type out all these.. cuz i know i cant express well in english.. but i'm trying hard here.. anyway.. i think i still know how she thinks and acts.. i'm jus a passer-by in her life.. so.. i'm thankful that she made me think so much after reading her blog..

*blank*

i totally dono how to organise my thoughts now.. i'm kinda lost.. i know i have work to complete.. and i will after posting this.. i jus feel that.. i need to post something.. hmmm.. how bout.. friends? well.. i've always been wondering very much on this.. and finally, i have the chance to address this topic.. (again)

*typing* *deleting*

i dono what to write.. got so many thoughts running in my head, but i cant piece them out into words.. maybe, i'm jus suffering from an emotional fatigue.. well, from time to time i suffer from fatigues.. physical, mental and now emotional..

maybe i'll jus talk bout no life.. easier.. yes.. i have no life.. maybe i shld get one.. argh.. and i realised, i muz move on., so many ppl are moving on, but i'm still stagnant.. i think i'm getting influenced by the fact that some of my JC friends are already moving on, thus making myself stress over these little things? A levels ended.. so i guess some of my friends went back to YT to work.. wow.. i got amazed by this..

anyway, i went to complete my report before coming back on this post.. and.. i have nothing to say..

lastly, my form teacher of 3E7 and 4E7 is getting married.. but i'm still wondering if i shld go.. so.. ya.. omedetou!!

updating

yeah.. finally.. i abandoned this blog for almost a week i guess? did i? anyway.. HERO is nice!! super nice!! i love it!! kimutaku!! woohoo.. and also, i found something today.. which makes me super happy as well!! thank goodness i remembered bout it!! if not i guess i might.. feel devastated? cuz its not that i remember i didn do it.. haha.. anyway, i got it.. so who cares now?

yeah.. cuz of my big expenditure today.. i need to save money again.. haha.. aim? $200 if i'm not wrong.. for the sake of my prodai!!! i muz gaman!! i wonder if i can hit the target.. hmmm.. calculation time.. haha.. totally cannot la!! zettai muri desu!! haha.. cuz i need to save bout $17 per day, when its like i cant even hit a $10 per day? ahhhh.. nvm, i try to save as much as i can.. and at most, i sell my cd out ba.. since i got one extra one.. hmmm.. calculating calculating..

nvm.. yeah!! uploading pictures now^^


haha.. yeah~ showing me and mai! and the MOW ice cream that pi endorse, and then the esplanade.. finally, pi's kurosagi chirashi^^ hooray!! that's the thing i found^^

so.. that's all i guess..

JE filled!!

woohoo!! friday is going to be a JE filled day!! yeah!!

i can find my MOW ice cream!! then i can get my NEWS mags!! most importantly, i'm going to watch HERO!! yeah!! though its after sch and i dono how late will it end, i'm still looking forward to friday!! finally ne~ a day for me to enjoy.. haha..

alright.. my com is so laggy now.. i wonder if its because of the py game i had jus now.. i bet my com cant take anymore applications.. argh.. i shld restart it later.. when i'm going to bathe..

and i'm trying to save money, for my prodai.. but at the same time, i'm like spending money for all those JE related stuffs..

NEWS

Which NewS member will you marry? by reinakathy
Name
Age
Favorite NewS member	Yamashita TomohisaUchi HirokiNishikido RyoKato ShigeakiKoyama KeiichiroKusano HironoriMasuda TakahisaTegoshi Yuya
Date you will get married	February 20, 2020
Who is he?	Yamashita Tomohisa

Lost in Johnny Jr. Co (NEWS) by mai
Name
you find yourself lost in the JE co b/c	you stop to ask for directions
there are millions of colored doors, you open the	blue doorred doorpink doorpurple doorbrown dooryellow doorgreen doorwhite door
You see him fixing his hair	Ryo
he says	hi
you're in shock so you	space out
he jumps out w/ only a towel on	YamaP
he says	Where are the others?
he realizes you're watching and calls him to join	Tegoshi
in the end you are	don't want to leave

NEWS Boyfriends by msxmasuda
Name
Location (City, Country)
Favorite Band
Song Listening to Now
Favorite Meal of the Day
Shopping Buddy
Movie Snuggler
Ice Cream Sharer
Purse Holder
Sweet as Pie Boyfriend

seriously.. i have no life.. -________-|||

help

alright.. i'm so mentally stress.. i think.. i'm not going to do ordering anymore.. argh.. everything is getting wrong!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. i wanna vent.......................................... i'm so going to stop it.. frankly, i think she's hiding something from me.. and i think something fishy is going on.. i jus doesn wan to point that out.. i dono.. maybe i really didn trust her much, for me to say such kind of things..

how can i carry on? i dono.. i feel like, i'm cheating on other ppl.. i dono.. argh.. i'm not going to do it.. i can do it occassionally, but i'm not going to continue it.. i can return all the things to her, i jus wanna stop it..

maybe then my life will be back to normal again.. i can only vent this here.. argh.. i'm feeling so tense.. i mean.. i dono what i'm doing practically.. this thing is driving me mad.. i wan to stop all these.. hopefully i can as well..

short post again

jus trying out for star's purpose... but at the same time^^ i got my pacific and weeeek!^^ haha.. if anyone is interested, can go my lj read read.. i abit xian to update now cuz there are loads of work waiting for me!!!

short post

haha.. i gotta slp soon.. but i'm getting excited!! cuz my weeeek and pacific are arriving soon!! most probably by saturday!!^^ woohoo!!

*end*

shonen wa tori ni natta & weeeek + pacific leaks

well, talk bout shonen wa tori ni natta first.. anyway, i think i dl-ed it like 1 or 2 mths ago.. but, i didn watch it.. ytd, after recovering from the "fake" yamapi single news (NEWS!!!), i got the urge and i watched shonen wa tori ni natta.. so.. its bout a boy who had a hole in his heart and trying hard to live.. and he likes birds(so do i!!^^) and he wanna see the eagle(the largest kind.. dono what izit called actually.. gomen) again.. not talking much.. cuz don wanna spoil the climax ne~

anyway, i knew it from the start that its going to get sad, but i told myself.. i'm not going to use tissues.. and i'm going to try not to get affected.. well, it worked! amazingly!! for the first half.. the moment i see yamapi crying, there goes my tears as well.. but i managed to hold back some tears.. and i continued with the show.. oh!! in d-addicts, it is described as "a document of love and touch(touch as in touching, sentimental?)".. ya.. and it is! haha.. anyway, then i continued with the show.. and.. ahhhhhhh.. tears and tears.. i can still remember.. cuz i was holding my chin with my right hand elbowed on my knee.. so.. when i cried, the tears flowed from my eyes to my hand and to the arm and to the knee.. that was how bad i cried.. well, that's cuz i didn use tissue.. if i did, maybe 5 tissues or more.. (shonen can be compared with grapevine ne~ both are making the audience bursting with tears) and.. well, it was very unexpected ne~ the ending? ya.. so.. that quality was so bad and i cant believe i cried like this.. i'm currently dl-ing the eng subbed version from bt.. hopefully it can finish by tml evening so i can rewatch with Mai and cry together.. haha..

ok.. regarding the leaks.. i was torn.. but in the end.. i dl-ed them.. and i listened.. so.. no more surprises.. haha.. nvm.. i'm still happy ne~ haha.. and i muz say.. weeeek and pacific are splendid!! haha.. i really love them!! I Love NEWS~! haha..

alright.. regarding all the songs.. i have some opinion? hmmm.. firstly, "with me" is such an emo song!! although many ppl think "Why" is emo, i think with me is more emo? i dono.. and also.. "why" may not be a favourite of mine, cuz i don really like western musics.. so.. its a pity ne~ argh.. now i have one less song to fangirl about.. and rainbow!!! i love rainbow!! its such a happy and lively song!! haha.. and its so much better than the shonen version that i have.. quality wise and fullness of the song of course.. well, either 8P NEWS or 6P NEWS is ok with me ne~ so.. haha..

then, i think "ai no matador" is another cool song!! what can i say? i'm loving NEWS!! I'm Loving Pacific and weeeek!! haha.. sayaendou is the same.. then "teppen"!! at first i couldn figure out the difference.. but after listening to it, i still cannot figure out the difference i think i sense a bit of the difference? haha.. nvm.. will compare again.. cuz i'm not repeating any songs, so i didn really concentrate on one song.. and "change the world"!! it was until now, or maybe jus now, then i heard this line "so let's change the world" in this song.. this shows how bad my hearing is.. argh.. and i think kimi omofu yoru is one nice song!! (gomen, all i can think of is "nice") haha.. i love the starting melody!! hontou ni!! i dono why but i was captured by that opening!! well, when i listened to the preview in JE web, i didn really noticed this song very much.. but after hearing the opening, i was hooked on!! haha..

alibi.. haha.. much better than the radio rip.. i can hear shige's and koyama's voices so clearly!! and all the background vocals!! cool!! i'm liking that song so much now.. (or rather, all the songs.. hehe..) and you know what? i love "code".. what has got into me? when i watched the NEWS DVD i didn like code at all!!! but when i listened to the cd version, seriously, the more i listened, the more i like it.. maybe cuz 3/11 was ryo's birthday.. i think its much better than the live version? and chirarizumu as well.. i was singing and swaying to the song while listening.. Mai was shocked as well.. (well, i told her online) even myself was shocked.. argh.. the power of NEWS.. and finally!! the ending of "ai nante'!! woohoo!! it was climaxed!! haha.. i mean the ending.. i love this song!! (like i said, weeeek and pacific are jus SPLENDID) and i dono how to describe.. haha.. i know i like this song very much.. and "nanto ka naru sa" well.. i may be biased.. cuz pi is singing in this song.. but during the first time i heard this song.. i truly enjoyed it and love it.. and although its the same as the cd, this cd real cd rip really has much better quality.. and i enjoyed that song again!^^ woohoo!!! its so cheerful!! although i know it was meant for massu.. i love pi it!!

and now~~ Gomen ne Juliet!! yeah!! no doubt i'm loving this song too.. and.. i couldn figure out what language that woman was saying.. and Mai told me its english.. i went -____-.. haha.. cuz i really cant decipher.. what am i going to do? anyway, its a little different from the concert version.. i mean the arrangements and all.. and it gave this song a total new feel!! wow!! (can someone give me some idea to make it into a RingTone or Msg tone? i'm thinking of making a msg tone with many many songs linked up.. haha.. but i need tips on how to link them.. like which song can blend into which song.. yup..) and i tried to understand what pi was singing.. and well.. i figured out some parts.. there was one saying that "i cant stop my love" and all.. couldn remember.. blame it on my poor memory.. and the rap!! it was so much softer and calmer than the concert version that it made me feel so much more? like the song's emotions penetrated in.. haha..

then.. (wow, i dedicated one para to gomen ne juliet ne~) well, strangely, i think hadashi no cinderella boy sounded very different from the one i've been listening to.. blame the quality.. and hoshi.. haha.. the same.. and it made me feel so much like buying the hoshi single.. next.. mafuyu!! haha.. this is one very heart-warming song ne~ and i love it as well!^^ and i've been trying to figure out the english words. but i guess i failed? i heard "i wish to meet you anywhere, i can be your heart, i wish to a smiling face tonight".. and i think its so wrong.. can anyone correct me?

and lastly, a ryopi acapella!! wow!! though i'm not a ryopi lover, i truly like this acapella!! now i noticed something, everytime they have an album, they'll have an acapella piece in it ne~ wow.. cool!! NEWS!! Go Go!! haha.. and its supposed to be a romantic song.. but somehow i cant feel it.. i feel more of happiness than romance ne~ haha..

and that's all.. wow.. a long post.. i'm going to cut it then.. haha.. don wanna spam posts.. oh.. and hopefully i can have my photos sold ne~ not enough money..

I am retard because i'm a singaporean..

i'm so going to repeat this sentence everywhere i go.. haha.. anyway, i posted such a huge rant in lj, i don feel like posting anything here.. so go read if you wanna know what happened.. haha.. and minna san, repeat after me, i'm retard cuz i'm a singaporean.. how funny.. alright. off to do my report!!