GUILTY

I'm feeling guilty, because since a month ago, I have not done anything other than buying and reading the guide for Tokyo. I halted my study plan of the railway system, and the JR pass. I did not update anything about my Japan trip.

Worst of all, I only saved my working salary for this trip. I didn't really scrimp on my daily allowance so that I can have more money for this Japan trip.

Actually, I still have more bad ideas. Sorry Aggie. 

I'm actually thinking of going Japan for more than 14 days, which can be around 20 days or even going to a month? I don't know. If I can get enough money for this, I'm really planning to do it. Because I heard it isn't easy to tour Japan within a short trip like 10~14 days. So I'm really thinking of extending my days in Japan to fully experience the life in Japan. As well as tasting the food and enjoying the sceneries? I thought going earlier will probably be better so that I can adapt to the weather and all before meeting Aggie. Then extending my days after meeting Aggie just in case there are things I wanted to do but not yet done? That was what I thought. Still thinking hard on this. Because this means, I need more planning, more determination and more money.

Actually, you know what? I should just email Aggie and ask her. Really. I'll do it rightaway.

Atashinchi no Danshi

I like this drama! Satoru and Masaru (?) so cute!! Seriously, they have to make everyone fall in love with Chisato (except Sho since he has a son already)! Then it will be so nice!! *laughs*

I have to sleep. So I'm sleeping!

IPOD SHUFFLE

Oh yes. I got one today. An IPOD SHUFFLE. Want to know why? Because I'm dying from my music-less days. I need music in my life. Argh. A music addict. 

Why an IPOD SHUFFLE?

Because that's the only one I got to borrow from Mai. *OOPS*

Yes, I borrowed it from Mai. Haha. I didn't buy it. No way I'm going to spend money on a MP3 when I'm planning to get an all-rounded mobile phone you see.

Thanks Mai!! :)

Shocked

I was shocked to see that I have a reader for one of my blogs. Does that mean that my blog can be easily searched online? Does that mean that there are people whom I don't know reading my blog? I wonder what's interesting on my blog, that actually made them read and became a reader of my blog.

Well, if you don't know yet, alright, I'm going to reveal it now. The reason why you seldom see fangirling on this blog is because I've diverted the fangirling onto another blog. So that I don't get my real life friends bored of my postings. So if you think that I'm over NEWS, you're so wrong.

Oh yes. My Japanese Sensei Nakanishi had her birthday a few days ago, which is 16 May by the way. So on Sunday, we sang birthday song for her! First we sang the English version, then the chinese version. I wonder what got over me and I immediately volunteered to sing the NEWS version. *laughs* She should be glad that I didn't even sing the 5566 version of Happy Birthday song. Really. (You can do a search on youtube and have a try on it though. I totally love the 56 version~) So I really sang!! Yeah~ And no one accompanied me. What a drag. But at least I sang! I was happy that I sang! Even though I wasn't even singing well and all, I hope she didn't mind my singing! *laughs* (I wonder if she even understood my singing, since the lyrics are in Japanese, so I wonder if I pronounced them correctly.)

Anyway, red alert! My body is sending red alert to me. I think. I'm now taking Vit C pills already. If things don't improve, I'm going to start taking calcium pills. And if things still don't improve, I'll probably need to consult a doctor during my off day. I shall see how. Because I still want to go Japan ok! *laughs*

Anyway, I'm starting to like my workplace. Because they/the kitchen always cooks herbal or cooling drinks! Today we had barley water. I'm so happy. Because it has been a long time since anyone boiled cooling drinks for me. I feel so touched. 

By the way, I wonder why I attended so many fussy/special customers. At least today. Because I had like so so so many strange orders. Argh. A table of 7, and 4 wanted chicken chop, 3 wanted to change CORN ONLY (which is accompanied by mashed potato) to fries which I've consulted the kitchen to be almost impossible. Because you see, the corns are like some small kernels on the mashed potato, and you expect us to change that little amount of corn into fries?! Strange. Then within these 3, 2 wanted to have their wasabi sauce aside. Then another table wanted 2 pizzas, one seafood pizza without squid and less cheese, plus a mushroom pizza with MORE cheese. He actually asked me to ask the kitchen to move the cheese from his SF PZ to the mushroom PZ his partner was going to have. Then another customer, asked if he could get sprite float but change the ice cream to green tea ice cream. Then another customer ordered Salmon steak but wanted to have less butter, or this or that. Which I'm even lazy to type out now. What else. But anyway, that's already enough to annoy the kitchen I think. I hated to go into the kitchen so much recently. Because the kitchen staffs always like to tease me and all. Argh..

I hope I don't get any strange customers this coming wed. But anyway, other than that, everyone was fine and kind and easy to get along. So nothing big after all. 

Alright, prepare myself for tomorrow. Long day~ Yeah~

Special Day!

Well, this is strange but I feel embarrassed saying "Happy Birthday" to my Dad. So I'm planning not to say it. But hey, I'm doing something for him. I hope he gets why I'm doing all these. I'm so so so glad that my shift ends at 9:30 tomorrow!!! Because this means I can get home early (at least earlier than usual) and I can celebrate the last few hours of my Dad's Birthday with him! What should I get what should I get? Or should I just bring him to that 24hr Xin Wang restaurant? I totally don't want Xin Wang since I don't remember the food being nice at all. So Xin Wang is off. I hope tomorrow can be an enjoyable night!!

I want a multi-purpose cooker by the way. And I forgot the rest of the things I want to update. Oh yes!! My I4 class! Have I already mentioned me finding JE fans? Actually I don't know if the other person is a classmate, but I know there's this KT fan who is definitely my classmate! Yeah! Finally a JE fan! *laughs*

That's all

I want to sleep already. Tired.

Last but not least...

Happy Birthday Pa!! :D

Thank you for raising me up even though I may not be a perfect daughter.

Hypocrite

What.

A.

Hypocrite.

I.

Am.

Stop acting friendly Mao! You're a loner and you know it! You hate people and you know it! You want to be alone and you know it! Stop acting friendly with everyone when all you want to do is to leave straight away! Nobody is going to care about you so why should you care about them?! They are colleague. You have nothing to do with them after working hours. So just leave straight away!! Don't be so naive and think that they will care about you. They don't give a heck about you! Stop being stupid and believe in everything they say. 

And what a hypocrite I am. Right everyone?

KIDS

Wa.. Somehow after teaching, I realise it is very difficult to control children. I'm really admiring all teachers for being able to stand a class of 40. I can't even stand a class of 2. I like my sec 1 kid but I'm starting to dislike the P4 kid. Because he is really uncontrollable compared to the other P5 kid. Yes, the P5 kid may not be that attentive too but at least he is willing to learn at times. For the P4 kid, I really don't understand why is he behaving in such a way.

Rude. Ignorant. 

And more but I'm unable to find a single word to describe them. It would be good if he can just have a little more respect for both the P5 kid and myself. Oh yes. He uses vulgarities too. Vulgarity is a big taboo for me since I don't like it. And hearing it from someone that young, I'm really disappointed and annoyed.

Actually, I can accept the use of vulgarities, but only when you use them in the correct timing. And the more you're using it at people, the more I'll dislike it. But if you're purely cursing because something bad happened and you just want to let something out, I can accept it. (Because using it at people is so rude. Unless that person is a jerk, I don't see why you need to use vulgarities.)

Something dropped onto the floor, "F---!". Ok I accept.

Somebody knocked onto you but did not even apologize, "KNN!". I accept too.

Normal conversation and you use all the vulgarities you know anyhow. Alright, I'm not accepting this at all.

Anyway. I'm tired already. I want to complete my laundry quickly and sleep.

Love of my life

That was my 7500 Prism.

My NEWS singles arrived for almost two weeks already, but I have not opened them yet. I wondered why and I got the answer almost immediately. Because I have no purpose opening since I had already downloaded the rips online.Then I realised, it was also because I don't have the need to rip my own copy of songs since I don't have a vehicle for them. Because I no longer have a good phone now.

All mobile phone companies, please release a super multi-tasking and hardy phone for me. Where is that "IBM Man" when I needed one immediately? The IBM Man was traditionally the service officers of IBM who visits homes and offices to fix and install computers. I saw it from a video today. I should just try to find that video to watch later.

I'm exhausted. So I'm planning to sleep already. Night~

Injuries

Two days ago my manager cut a piece of flesh out from his finger (left hand) accidentally. Today I scalded my fingers (left hand) with boiling water and it is almost like cooked now. I wonder whose left hand will be the next. 

Take care everyone. (And I'm still alive. Thank goodness.)

Tired

I'm exhausted. Mentally. Physically yes but so much more mentally.

Somehow I was unable to take the stress today. My OM hurting his finger somehow shook me. And with that unintentional comment I was much more depressed than ever. (Am I a really jinx or something? Never have I ever wished I never exist.)

Since my first working day, I've seen so many injuries. I wonder if they were normal or already happening in a frequency too high. There was a passing remark by someone about me causing that injury of my OM. Even though I was very confirmed that I did not cause that injury, somehow I sort of went unsure and even questioned the rest if I had caused that injury. Of course the answer was NO. 

I hate how I can't do something to make things better. Just like how there's nothing I could say when my OM said his finger was effing bad. All I could do was to see him off and asked him to take care. How useless was that?

I hate the fact that I'm not close to anyone at all and how I can't establish a better relationship with them. How I kept saying "sorry" because I'm incompetent. How the water heater just had to give me problems during closing hours. How I had to make waffle mix but unable to find a place to store it. How all the things just somehow jammed at the food runner's station. How I was repeatedly reminded about my lateness in closing today. How I kept needing help from others.

Even though I can end this post with a positive mindset, I don't want to. Somehow I don't really want to feel optimistic now. I know some days are good and some days are bad. Somehow I feel that I had the worse day of the week. Until tomorrow and Sunday, I can't confirm this statement yet. 

I pity the organisation, for having such an incompetent worker like me. Are they wasting their money on me?

Argh, have to reflect properly. I need to increase in my speed. How to organise things better and do things in an orderly manner. How to be efficient. Initaitive. 

I hate how I got back to my old self. The one which kept saying "sorry". I can still recall during Sec 2 I was so apologic. I hate it. 

Come on. Evolve already! The flu virus has already mutated so many times yet I'm still the same. Time for a change. Really. For a better future.

You Scored as Blue Your heart is blue. You are a very calm and relaxed person. You are very caring and like helping others. You're grateful for what you have in life, even if it's not perfect. People love you for who you are, don't ever change that- it's what makes you the great person that you are. Blue 82% Green 68% White 61% Yellow 54% Purple 43% Pink 43% Red 43% Black 32% Orange 7%

Workaholic not?

Somehow I feel that my life revolves around work now. I will definitely be working everyday. I even thought of working part time for Herbalife. Give out flyers, or do surveys. Something like this. I'm not sure how much will I be getting. But if I can earn another $4~$8 for the breaks I have in Shokudo, why not?

I'm so turning into a workaholic. Seriously. I hardly have time for myself now. I think. 

Early sleep!

I must keep to my title and sleep early! Because finally I had an early off today and I have a later reporting time tomorrow. Actually not since it is split shift anyway. And yeah! I have free transport home tomorrow! But I hope I can close the food runner station. Or never mind, let me close the floor so that I can learn how to be quicker. 

And I hope I can change before I take the transport home tomorrow! I don't really want to wear the shirt home. *laughs* And I wonder if I'll be sent home first or later. Since my SC lives in TPY. I'm not sure where the other person lives though. Since last time when I heard it was Balastier but somehow I was told by my MIT that it is Yishun. Great if it is Yishun, because it saves time. *laughs*

10 working hours tomorrow. Have to fight the whole day. Shall start it properly with an early wake up then a refreshing bath then a great breakfast and finally off to work. As if it can be that perfect. *laughs*

Someone please tell me how to deal with "buta". Argh.

Growing Up??

Today I truly learnt how guys or adult males are usually pervertic. Or they usually talk about lechrous things. Is that how you say it? I don't really know how to express in English. Argh. Alright. Erotic. Easier to understand.

This is an obvious thing right? But somehow I only truly experienced it today. It is either my past 19 years had been lacking the presence of guys or probably it is the older they become, the more lechrous they are. 

Why is growing up like this? Why do I hear more and more vulgarities when I have more grown-ups around me? Why do I also hear vulgarities when I have younger ones around me? Why can't people just stay civillised and stop using such vulgar swearing words? 

It wouldn't be amazing if one day "F---" came out of my mouth because I'm in such an environment almost everyday.

Anyway, another day has passed. Yeah to a new day.

Before I realise,

The countdown timer on my right has already gone into the 198th day countdown. I heard thunder and I think it is going to rain soon. I'm completing my laundry and going to bathe before sleeping. I hope I will feel like blowing my hair dry later. 

Finally had some proper chatting with Mai and Yanxuan. Made me like a human again. Because I don't have anyone to really chat with anyway during work. I'm lacking the nourishment of friends. Please come and find me ok! *laughs* At least send me a message, I'll be so glad to reply after my work! Because I can't really look at my phone during work you see.

It is actually 5 now and I'm writing this after my bath. This post took a stretch of like 2 hours just so it can be posted. 

So main points now. The days to countdown is less 200 now, and I think I'll meet Mai every Tuesdays from now onwards.

And other than being a bit slow on the syllabus, I think I controlled the P5 kids better today. The Sec 1 kid is so cute! I love doing maths with him. Seriously. I think he is a clever boy. I hope he do well for his test tomorrow! Must get 80 and above ok! Then do me proud. *laughs*

That should be all. I have to sleep already. Argh. Night.

Happy Birthday~!

It's ten already and I'm planning to sleep early tonight. I wonder if I can do it actually. Yeah because the first lesson of my course is already done! I'm only left with my second lesson which is next monday. Not exactly a bad one, because indeed I learnt some skills. 

And finally I could go Orchard and had a decent walk and shopping. In fact, I think it was the longest stay in Kinokuniya, since I spent around 2 hours in there. I browsed so many maps and guides, and in the end I bought 2 Japanese guides of Tokyo and Osaka. When my intention was to buy a full Japan map to study their railways!!! I was seriously attracted to that two guides. Too colourful and interesting for someone who has never been to Japan before.

Someone please inform me to go JTB on coming Sunday to get some copies of Japan maps. I hope they have free maps so that I can save some cost. So for my $7500 budget, $40 is already gone because of that two guide books.

Rest assured I'll make them my bible and bring them everywhere I go to have a detailed read. But I think I'm already going to fall asleep. Not going to type any longer. Household chores day tomorrow, need more energy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAN XUAN~!

Today!

Alright! I celebrated Yan Xuan's birthday with a Strawberry Cake~ I hope you liked it! ^^ Actually I also got to taste the cake as well as the MOW ice cream and the noodles she had this afternoon. Seemed like we had lots of food. Because I had fruits and cereal too~ And in the end I had stomachache during work~ *laughs* But I didn't really bother about it and it went away in a while too.

My bag was indeed too big for the shelf. Have to change to another bag next Sunday. Anyway somehow it feels a little lonely during work nowadays. Probably because I don't really consider my colleague as friends? Or rather I don't know if I should assume that they are my friends too. Since all we did were just plain communication during work. Nothing more than that. So I guess everyone is still colleague to me after all? Anyway it is not like I'm planning for a long term working. Just till the end of this year. So I guess it will turn alright somehow? ナントカナルサ。

Some highlights during work. One chef performed a magic trick. He turned one 50 cents into 2 50 cents coins. Then someone asked him to turn one $50 note into 2 notes. So he started to fold the note, and folded again, and again until it became a tiny piece. Then he rubbed it between his hands, and when he opened up...

It became a crumpled $50 note. (That was all he could do~ *laughs*)

Someone can start telling me what to choose, "buta", "zo" or "ton katsu". -_-|| If I even made sense in the first place. -_-||

アホ！

Yet another nick -__-||

And not exactly a good one.

"BUTA" (which means "pig" in Japanese)

Domo Arigatou Ne~ (sacarstically)

Somehow I wished I did not answer his question. I hope it won't spread around the staffs there or anything. -_-|| Finally tomorrow can meet Yan Xuan!! *laughs* Somehow even though we have only not met for 2 weeks, it seems a little too long~ I want to talk to you! *laughs* And because I know you won't be reading this until tomorrow night at least...

Happy Birthday to you in Advance!!! I shall sing "Happy Birthday" (NEWS) to you tomorrow~! See so nice! *laughs* Chorus only though~ Haha. :)

Short post

I realise I'm happier in Bugis than in Cine somehow. Probably because of how I started there, like being more extrovert and all. Or probably just because the people there really joke more and are friendlier. Or probably I had to interact with them more. Or probably.. I don't know. I just feel that I'm happy in there now. And much happier than I was in Cine.

I wonder if this is a good thing or a bad thing. Probably good since I'm enjoying working there. Bad because I actually compared them. But I have to say, the people are really a little more outspoken and, yes, joke more. 

Thank you everyone there who joked with me, because it helped to relax my tension. I appreciate that even though sometimes it might be a little overboard or something. *laughs* Call me "maoreen" or "mo li" for all you want so long you know who you're calling for. *laughs*

Split shift tomorrow. Shall sleep now. Night!

I have to sleep in 7 minutes time

But I still have not written my NEWS lyrics of the day, as well as blogging a little about my name and my day. Alright, so I shall at least start with my name and my day now!

Anyway, I realised there are always people who can't pronounce my name properly. I think that's why there's this invented "maoling" for all. *laughs* Last time there was a person who can't really pronounce it properly, that is Nigel. He always calls it until it sounds like "moureen". Then I had a few teachers who just couldn't pronounce it and had to make it sounded like "maoreen".

I finally found another person. Who can't pronounce my name properly as well. *laughs* First he said "maoreen", then he said "mer-reen". Finally with my correction it became "Maureen". Then the second time, it became "maoreen" again, then "mer-reen". And it's like a viscious cycle. I wonder when will people be able to pronounce my name properly. Since anyway, it is already suggested by the spelling. "Mau-reen".

Then the kitchen staffs are calling me either by "mo li" or "mo li hua" or "er sao". I wonder how that "er sao" came about. Somehow they are using that suddenly. -_-|| By the way, "mo li hua" is more commonly used now somehow. -_-||| I'm turning into a flower??

Probably I should just ask them to call me by "maoling" or "mao" as well. Last time in Cine they called me by my chinese name because they didn't key in my english name on the time sheet. Especially workers from China. Then finally they switched to my english name, and I was about to be transferred to Bugis.

So today. My first so called night shift in Bugis. Transport was a bit bigger, but lesser people. I was the third to return home within 5 people. Then there's this willful person who asked me to move so that he could lower the back of his seat and lie down. -_-|| Same person as the above by the way.

And Yi Hua came today!! They sat on the table next to where Yan Xuan sat last time! *laughs* Fate probably? And when they came, I was running station 1! *laughs* They really chose a correct time to come. Because that's when I can serve them. Being a food runner or if I was in another station, probably I wouldn't be able to serve directly.

And I did inventory today. Not that difficult actually. Except for the counting of straws and tiny stuffs. I asked what "baby ice cubes" were and if I had to count that as well, they answered me by pointing to the ice maker and said I could go and count them one by one if I wanted to. New ice cubes come in intervals by the way. And napkins. Somehow I was supposed to count them pieces by pieces, or at least estimate out the opened ones in packets. 

By the way, suddenly thought of some conversations (that resolved around a same topic anyway) which somehow bothered me a little now. I had to count stocks which are placed high up in the cupboard. So I asked if I could use a chair. Then these kitchen staffs said, "Don't take that chair, later you step on it too heavy then break must pay money.". Then I went on asking how much it cost. And my SC answered by saying it's $195, or was it my OM? Then either my OM or my SC replied saying I'll get a discount, only $150. So nice right? And they said it was cheap. So I even went on saying that they could just give me one if it was that cheap.

Next episode, I was high up on the chair when someone walked past behind me. So for precaution as well as our safety, I just said "be careful." Then he replied "you should be the one to be careful." which I thought was thoughful. But suddenly he changed and said he should be the one to be careful after all. Because if I fell, he would be the one injured and dead. So I said he wouldn't die, just some fractures here and there. So he asked hands or legs, and I said up to him to choose. Which then he said it will depend on how I fall and all. And I was totally tired of replying him. -_-||

Then now I just somehow realised, these people really like to joke a lot right? But somehow they also do personal attacks. I should learn how to handle this kind of jokes. Think think think.

So that's all. And seems like I'm able to blog more than last time when I was working in Cine. Seems like Bugis isn't such a bad place after all. 

Must sleep already!!!