Some soul searching

Well, I have not fully cleaned my room yet, which I'm planning to do right after my attachment ended. So I'm going to put full force in cleaning it, starting from MONDAY~ *laughs* And my parcels are coming in batches, probably 6 batches, 2 coming in 2 days time, so more reasons to clean my room. Tomorrow is my usual Japanese day, so I shall let tomorrow free of nothing. (And face a messy room at the end of the day~ -_-||)

Then more soul searching, which is job hunting in fact. Once my room gets cleaned, I have to look for jobs. My ideal starting date was mid March, but suddenly I have the feeling of pushing it to April, in fact, I was thinking, probably after I got my cert? *laughs* Procrastinator~ Well because, if I were to go for the graduation ceremony, I need to have a free day don't I? I'm planning on taking a full time permanent job actually, so taking a leave after commencing job only for a while seems bad isn't it? Well, I hope I get some good job. Shall start job hunting soon! (By the way, I'm actually quitting the thoughts of entering Uni, because of some reasons~)

You know what? I better lead those lives of those millionaires, like how I'm not that educated but Goddess of Luck happen to take a liking of me and I'll open some big companies or something when I get older~ *laughs* AS IF IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN.

*soul searching*

Okay, I am not going to lead those lives so I have to work hard and put in more efforts~ (Honestly speaking, I wish I led those lives, millionaires' lives~) Okay, I'll quit day dreaming.

But most importantly, I'm going to soul search on my biasness, my blatant bianess for Korean related things. In fact, I'm ashamed for disliking almost every single Korean thing. That fish rice from North Point Food Court was probably the only Korean thing I liked. Used to like. Because the serving became so small that it looked miserable. And to be frank, I always get so turned off whenever Mai talks about some Korean stuff she watched or she heard or she whatever. I should feel ashame for that too. Argh, I hate myself somehow now.

I wonder what happened to me. I bet it is those over-exaggeration on how Korean stars and all are too good and I totally get turned off. Or it must be the over-publicising of Korean dramas by Mediacorp. I went Poh Kim that day and happened to see a drama which was aired on Channel U I guess. A doctor drama. I saw how the doctor was trying to save the patient, and he was doing CPR on that patient. But the first thing I thought was, "Code Blue is better.". Then I went on thinking, "Code Blue is so much better. You look so fake. You're killing the person instead. Oh my, this whole show looks so fake. I hate everything of this show.". The end. I totally detest this show in the end.

Then I told Mai, because she told me she was watching Code Blue recently. I was happy of course, but it has come to the stage where I don't force her anything about NEWS anymore. So I merely asked what she thought about Code Blue, and how come she thought Code Blue was nice. So she explained a little, that little in fact. Which I was thinking, "okay, at least it caught your attention finally.". Then she said she watched another Korean drama, which happened to be that Ch U drama I detest. So I asked how was it, and she told me how she was crying to one scene where someone's nose was already injured but had to suffer from some punch by some other doctors. It was a drama about the politics in a hospital by the way. But I don't really care now.

I further got turned off by Mai when she said she listened to Big Bang. Argh. I don't know. I just hated the fact that Mai went over to Korean side somehow. Or probably, I was just feeling lonely.

I have no one to fangirl NEWS anymore. Seriously. No one. When I felt something, I have no one to turn to. Somehow I've become a lonely fangirl. Hahaha.

Although NEWS made me happy, but I have no one to share my joy to, because no one can understand my joy. So why should I tell someone who doesn't even care? I may have online friends, but I can only chat with them only when they are online. Especially my overseas friends whom I can only contact through emails and all. I want to fangirl, but I felt so lonely fangirling to myself and only emails or blogs at times. I want some immediate reactions too. I want to see reactions too.

Probably, I didn't have proper fangirling of NEWS all these whiles. Previously, I probably wasn't fangirling properly, because all I focused was on Pi and his looks or actions or whatsoever. Now I want to properly fangirl on their voices, their interactions and all, but no one to share with.

I don't know. I'm lost now. By what I've typed.

I should just stop here.

Headphones!

Audio Technica ATH-FW5

I want a new headphone/earphone!! Isn't the above a beauty?! The white ones!! Oh my~! Now I've set my eyes on this brand, Audio Technica!! If it's cheaper to buy over at Amazon, I will!!

*Loves*

By the way, probably not this model yet, I'll research more and more! Yeah! New headphones, here I come! (Forget about creative, TSK.)

Not really in a good mood

That's why I'm posting? But probably not here, so.

Forgot to add on that I had a fall on 31 Jan and sprained my ankle.
And...
Some people are giving me problems now, argh.
First time ever I felt that people are so uncooperative.
Please, pay up if the deadline is already nearing.
Argh, damn JE calendars mass ordering.
Why should I help these people who are so uncooperative?
I hate myself.

RAINBOW

This picture I took today could probably portray all the feelings I had today and I'm having now? Well, before this picture was taken, there were storms and downpours, which was similar to what I was experiencing. Then finally, the rain stopped and there was a rainbow, which showed that all the bad things or emotions were coming to an end and there is a brighter future. However, behind this rainbow, there were dark clouds. So generally, even though it seems that problems or woes have been solved or were all gone, there are still more troubles to come and more things to be worried of and everything doesn't seem as perfect as it is like the rainbow.

The only happy thing?

I woke up to 5566 songs today, no longer A-Mei's songs.
龙之传奇演唱会

soon

Soon everyone will be going in separated ways, can't help but feel a little sad.
Is that how things are going to end?

One Month

It has been a month since I've last updated, and within a month, so many things could have happened and happened.

Renfu got married, and held his wedding again in Taiwan just last Saturday. Seeing them happily ever after made me so happy and fortunate to have supported him. Jia you Ren Fu!

FYP ended, just yesterday, and I was a little sad having to leave the company. Because indeed I've enjoyed during my 6-mth stay in the company. I hope everyone all the best, and to myself as well.

I received my first Valentines' Day chocolates, but good thing doesn't last I guess?

Japanese I2 results was released last week, and I got my first full mark for oral, good news I guess?

I have not paid attention to NEWS for the past one month, not that there were many news for me to catch up with.

I'm feeling stress somehow, I don't like this.

Chinese New Year was an enjoyable one, but I'm worried for my Grandmother. I shall visit her this coming week.

Nothing much to say I guess..

Ganbatte/Jia You/Work Hard everyone~