Being happy

Yeah~ A short update!^^ Or rather, a little about my feelings now, before I go on with my work~^^

Being happy is a special thing. I thought it is really amazing to feel happy constantly~ And I thank all those incidents and everything that gives me happiness. The most amazing thing is, I get my happiness from others too! When someone around me feels happy, I feel happy too! For the person and for myself~^^ (I just wanted to post how I'm feeling happy now because of my friend~^^ You know who you are!!)

So start influencing your people, feel happy and pass the happiness around!

Stay Happy Always!

PS: Congrats, and I wish the two of you happiness too!! Through ups and downs you two must stay strong ok! And I hope this will last long for both of you~^^

Wishes from Mao~

Rollar Coaster Ride

Are my dreams shattered?

Please don't shatter my dreams...

I must stay strong.

After waking up

Everything that happened last night seems like a dream to me, unreal. The passion remains, the desire remains, with me. But I'm starting to doubt on myself, on the feasibility and all uncertainties.

"No dream is too big."

I should always remember this line. Frankly, these few posts are just some personal struggles which I always go through. Ignore them. *laughs*

Before everything, the road was blurred. Now that it has cleared up, I'm giving second thoughts to it. I wonder if I have what it takes to walk down the road I've chosen. If I failed halfway, I wonder if I can pick myself up again.

Back to work~ (because I'm affected by rumours now~)

Crazy

You know, it is really crazy that I've set my goals in such a short time. And I want to work towards it. I will work towards it. I hope my dad can give me his support too. I shall discuss with him again~

(You can't imagine how excited I'm feeling right now and I totally can't sleep at all despite the lack of sleep these past few days~)

I wonder what the future holds for me.

I have a dream

"It's a craze."

"You know, I thought of the song when I typed the title out."

I don't know which one of the above should I start my entry with. But I'm sure, both are related to my entry today. My computer is giving me problem by the way, because of the virus most probably? Or probably not? Who knows. But never mind, I'm going to continue on with my entry.

I have a dream. I have a dream. I have a dream!! After living my life for almost 20 years, I have a dream now! I want to realise my dream! I know what I want to do and what to be! This is like the first time I'm so sure of what route I want to take, what future I want, and decide for myself. 

Everything seems so crazy to me, because everything seemed so impossible, yet possible. I want to realise my dream in the shortest time I can. This feels so crazy, because everything came to me suddenly. I can't believe I'm so excited and I'm going to touch something I thought I hate.

I hope I do realise my dream. 

Everyone, please work hard towards your dreams!

I'm so depressed...

...that I suspect that I might get depression anytime soon. I really hate viruses. Computers' I mean. Infecting my body (the real virus I mean now~) is one thing. Infecting my computer/laptop (Computers' viruses, worms and all those~) is another thing. Both I don't wish having, but if I was to choose, I would choose the former probably. Even though I might die from it? I wonder. 

Ahhhhhh.. I think I'm getting too addicted into internet somehow, which is not good. I can't live a few days without my laptop and internet connection. A few days. I can live a day or two without it, but not more than that~ And having a virus (NOW!!) in my laptop is giving me a hard time. I'm so worrying for it!!! Both my precious laptops are so precious to me!! They are my treasures!! 宝物！！！I had to use Kanji somehow, *laughs* since "Happy Birthday" is playing~

I wish all the best for both my laptops, and I'm going to start all the backing up thing before I do anything to my com. I hope the virus stays dormant or something. Don't harm my com and files!!!! My poor laptop, please recover ok!!

I hope those people who invent these viruses can do something better.. Argh.. I really hate getting virus!! This is like the third time? First time I admit, I was dumb enough to open a spam mail. Second time I admit, I was dumb enough to accept a zipped picture file from someone I'm not close with in my class. But third time?!! How unlucky am I to get infected 3 times? And I should consider this a fourth time, since BOTH my laptop are infected~ (Most likely, since I have not checked my XP. But I have 99% confidence that it is infected. And I hate such confidence!!!)

Please pray for both my computers if you have the heart to do so. I'll thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. I love my laptops. I don't want anything to happen to both of them~ I pray too. *prays*

And now, time for some research work and back-ing up~

If today was included in the Happy Meme...

I received a parcel today~~^^ I feel so happy! 

The end! *laughs*

Thanks Aggie~~!! *hearts*

Fandom

I remember wanting to make a post like this, and now I think I shall write it, since I got inspired by my previous post, as well as an incident yesterday. 

I don't know how to start, so I shall start with the incident? Meizi asked how I can listen to NEWS song almost everyday and not get tired of it or something along that line. I wonder if I thought carefully before answering her yesterday, because I can't think of my reason now. *laughs* By the way, I'm listening to NEWS songs now too. "GAME of LOVE" now. Ok, now I remember what I answered her.

You know about favourite songs? Or probably some songs which you really like very much? Don't you listen to them even probably a few years from now? Or some songs which you really love very much a few years ago, don't you still keep the song in your MP3 and listen to it from time to time till now? So what is happening now is that, I have more than a song which I love, so I'm listening to them all from time to time now.

Then she replied with something along this line, that I listened to NEWS too often which was not considered "from time to time". Probably so, since I listen to NEWS ALMOST EVERYDAY. But I'm someone who can put a song on repeat for hours and days, so probably that's why I can listen to NEWS almost everyday?

I'm off topic, never mind, I shall move on to the topic "fandom". There are probably people out there who are disapproved of fandom, thinking that these are all crazy infactuations and actions probably? I'm not sure. But since I'm in fandom, I'm all out for fandom~ *laughs* And I remember making a comment about Fahrenheit, about how I cannot accept them and also why I'm not their fan. I'm a 56 and NEWS fan by the way~ *laughs*

Fahrenheit said that they would give their best shot during their concert performance, so that their fans could feel that supporting them was all worthwhile. I support this point very much, and I feel that having this kind of thought is good, for an idol. I'm glad that they are working hard for their fans~ Isn't fandom like this? A 2-way relationship. Idols get their love and support from the fans, while the fans get their gratitude from their idols. 

All fans hope to get something in return from their idols I believe, and I do as well, just that the kind of return each fan is hoping for may differ. For me, seeing their improvements is plain happiness and is already enough. Knowing their bonds have grown stronger just further touch me~ So being a fan is probably placing your attention on someone to give yourself more motivation to move on and become a better person?

Actually, I'm losing my trail of thoughts already. So I shall stop here. But I love discussing about how idols sometimes play a big role in your life. So please come and discuss with me if you want to!^^ *laughs*

Year 2009

Year 2008 had passed and here comes 2009~

How is everyone doing?

Wishing everyone a smooth and great year ahead! 
Plus good health and stay happy always! :)

Time to set some resolutions isn't it? I wonder what should I set this year, because obviously I did not keep any of my resolutions last year~ *laughs* Well, I guess I shall write it in 3 forms~^^

To Myself:

• Eat well
• Sleep well
• Stay happy
• Work hard
• Take care

To Friends and Family:

• Respect all
• Listen to all
• Give attention to all
• Care for all
• Treat everyone well
• Don't disappoint anyone

To Idols:

• Stay as a loyal fan
• Be an obedient fan
• Follow up their news weekly
• Do not spend unnecessary money on TV mags
• Support only original goods
• Treasure all my goods

I guess these are all? Not a proper resolution I should say, but at least these are doable~ *laughs* I hope everyone is having a good time now.

I hope that 2009 will be a good year ahead, for myself and for everyone. This year is going to be a hard year because recession has hit us. However, let's not get depressed and strive harder? Let's work hard towards our goals!

Happy 2009!