I'm in a hyper mode now

Well, sep is coming, but that's not the reason why.

I watched BB on KHTV yesterday but due to the poor reception I only got some glimpse of the ending, though I saw what happened. Right now I've just finished and wow, I love how aggressive Naoki is. Woo! *laughs* Great Acting Pi!!! :)

I have many thoughts running in my head but I don't know how to pen them down. I've decided, I want to go back to my old self already. Somehow I'm tired of being.. I don't know. I feel that I'm taking things for granted, AGAIN. I thought too highly of myself. I'm just a nobody. I'm not someone indispensable. I'm not sure if I can be that firm when I see everyone tomorrow but, I want to try. I want to bring that distance back again. Somehow shortening the distance between everyone makes me feel uncomfortable now. Because it feels like I'm faking too much.

I don't know what to do now. I feel like a hypocrite. I know I meant it when I say "thanks", but when I use it so frequently, it doesn't mean anything anymore. To the state where I doubt myself whenever the word comes out from my mouth. Every time I say "thanks", I question myself right after, if I really meant it.

I'm really being doted by them too much. I have to know my limits.

But even though I've said so much above, I still miss them and I want to chat with them so much. It's that kind of feeling whereby you feel that someone treats you as a person who is more than just someone unimportant in their lives. I don't know if I made sense in my previous sentence. Probably I'm just feeling lonely now. I just need some attention on myself.

I'm a little amazed at how at one moment I was so hyper about Pi's acting yet the other moment I'm so down.

Number of Days

On the right, I have a count down timer to nov 21, even though I wasn't planning to quit that time. Anyway, can't believe that the number of days decreased from 200 to now even less than a hundred. Time really flies.

Soon September is coming, I need to plan some things already. Of course I'll say it's an important month to me because it's my month :) There are many things I wanted to do.

-Surprise for friends and colleagues
-Outing and celebration

So I'm going to plan a little on my outing/celebration here now. In fact, I shall list down the things I wanted to do and see which are more feasible. Because I'm only having a day off anyway.

-Meet Crystallised!
-Meet Xuan and Mai and Bren!
-Sing K?
-Eat Tofu Cheese Cake! (I have plans for this already! Yeah! I hope I remember what I wanted to do!)
-What else?

I have no life. *laughs* Because I can't even think of what to do for my special month. Never mind, please give me some ideas! :)

There goes my money

And they say, "Buses come in threes", don't they?

After my "H1N1" ordeal, here comes more complications.
Toothache. But not a toothache. Argh.
Pulpa necrosis I heard from the dentist, I hope I spelt that correctly.
Yeah, I was almost correct, "Pulpal Necrosis", he said.

Never mind about that. I just want to note down the fact that I spent $100 knowing I may have pulpal necrosis as well as having a thorough teeth cleaning. Yeah.

My teeth are shiny white now by the way~ Yeah~ :)

EDIT: And shucks, I have no space for my wisdom teeth. -_-|||

Work

There goes my Performance Allowance. There goes a PH.

I don't know. I'm actually feeling a little lonely not able to go work. Somehow going to work, mingling with the people there has become part of my daily routine.

Someone is leaving, again. How not to feel depressed.

PA starting soon, but I'm hoping I won't get in, then I shall ask for refund and ask Yihua to join me in Ikoma.

You gain some, you lose some.

3rd day of Medical Leave

Temp went back to 38.4C last night. Panicked. Both ears blocked so much that couldn't sleep whole night. So painful that I even cried a little this morning. Finally with another dose of med I managed to sleep.

Temp is now 37.7C. This means my fever has not subsided yet, does it mean I'll have to go hospital eventually?

Just when my temp dropped to 37.3 yesterday. ARGH.

I shall visit the GP later, if he refers me to the hospital, then I'll go hos tonight.

*Praying hard that it's not H1N1 or H3N2 or whatever*

Probably I was thinking too much afterall

The doctor scared me by saying I need to go TTS if my fever doesn't subside by Thursday. I even checked the price, the details and all. I know the testing costs $250 but fully paid by government. I just need to pay some fees of $85. Never mind about that already, because thankfully, my fever has subsided (I think?). I just hope it stays that way. And 5 more days at home. I'm just going to rot.

I'm pessimistic

probably 1 wk later, this blog no longer updates.
My phone no longer rings
Your phone no longer rings with my name
I do not exist on earth anymore.

Will I have to go hospital eventually?

or is google chrome giving me the probs instead?

typing style a little dif today because i'm lazy and tired..

i worked non-stop (i guess?) for 2 wks and look what I've got myself into?

Argh. Fever, cough and flu. It better not be anything serious.

it started from sat..

argh..

thank goodness i have 2 days off..

But then, they need me tonight..

Should i go back, and with a fever which may spread to them as well?

I wonder..

i believe blogger has problems

It is affecting my mood a little but just that little, because there's something that brightened my day and is still brightening my life now.

I bought Nokia N86 White FINALLY!!! :)

More details next time, since blogger is giving me prob~

髪を切ったよ～！

I cut my hair! Or rather, I did lots of things to my hair!! Saw the changes? Remember in my previous posts I mentioned about going to do something? That's the something! Some of you might have known, somy may not. I intend to keep this as a surprise for most of you anyway so~

SURPRISE!

Is this a surprise in the first place? *laughs*

Anyway, lots of things to update now, because I'm still in the vain excited mode. Today, I woke up late, because I slept late last night. So in the end, my appointment became 12pm instead of 11am. By the way, I actually went there yesterday with Xuan to check out the preparations beforehand. Turn out to be none, and also, the person actually told me I'll most probably be late. And yes, I was indeed late. That hairdresser is Marcus by the way. While my hairdresser is Elaine. Some may know which salon I'm referring to, some may not, but it doesn't matter at all.

So today I went there with Mai. It was a full day because I planned to have lunch (my treat) and also movie (Harry Potter) with her. So we met at Orchard, and I started my hair styling session. If you have not noticed yet, I did hair rebonding. And I doubt you can notice, I had highlights as well. *laughs* So, I started off with rebonding, and I was torn between highlighting or not. In the end I succumbed to temptations and I had highlights too. From 1 colour, became 2 colours, and Elaine was kind enough to offer me 2 colours at the price of 1! :) So after rebonding, I had 2 shades of red for highlights. Well, because she recommended the colours, I just accepted them~

Then she started to dye my hair, and when it was finished, I really like the results! Some more, she was telling me how hard my kind of highlight was because it's not just the usual strip highlights. If not for the amount of time and also patience, it wouldn't be that nice and all. I have hidden highlights by the way. :) So I really appreciate how much she did for my hair!

So after rebonding, hair trimming then highlight. I had my head washed for at least 4 times. Not including the time I washed before I went out. So end result? The picture above. The whole process took around 5 hours. In fact, more than that. Wow~ *laughs*

I guess if you managed to meet me within 2 weeks, my hair should still be in optimum conditions, especially the highlights.

Then Mai and I went to Bugis to have our lunch/dinner. We ate in Shokudo (well I planned that long ago by the way). I seriously love the people there! *laughs* Firstly, we order drinks, Iced Macha Latte and Iced Apple Vinegar (without ice, my order). Then a normal AV should just have 5 to 8 slices of apples, but mine had 20+ pieces I guess? When Andi saw it he said the bar might as well just give me an apple. *laughs* Then our Crunchy Salmon Maki had 2 strips of salmon instead of 1. I really love Xiao Li for that! Then I wasn't sure about our pasta (Salmon Butter Ikura Spaghetti, cream sauce), but the salmon steak was big, so. Probably they tried to choose a slight bigger one for me, but of course not the one for Salmon Steak. And Thick Toast, Amber prepared that for me! I was so delighted! And she gave us 2 bananas. And she even decorated the plate with a heart shape. *laughs* Love her so much! Now I know why we were so full, we were overfed! We also had Takoyaki, Kinoko Horenso Soup Udon (extra chilli) and Tofu Cheese Cake.

When I asked for the bill, Andi actually took out our drink items! Love him too! In the end, it was my treat anyway, so I foot the bill and we went for our movie. I will say HP is, boring. It wasn't that comfortable too. I wonder was it the seat or the movie. Never mind that. And we went home!

So I really had a fun day! Thanks Mai for accompanying! And also thanks Xuan for yesterday! Because we went out for a little while too. It was a pity that you couldn't see my hair change immediately. I want to show you! If you happened to be free tomorrow (I'll sms you I think~) or any days I can make it, let's meet for a short while!! *laughs*

Then for crystallised, I guess we'll have an outing soon too, so yeah~

Lastly, Yi Hua san, we'll meet during the coming japanese lessons! By the way, my friend strongly recommend Ikoma, let's discuss more about this?

I shall wait for the pictures taken by Amber and Mai, so that probably I can show my highlights~ *laughs*

I'm a Happy Person now! Happy Mao~

Bunka Idol

Gosh. I think I really messed it up. *cries* I did not introduce myself. I was nervous. I was stopped by them just when I reached my chorus. I didn't look into their eyes. I was shaking. I don't remember saying "Thank You" as well. Gosh.

And I just thought of a better part to sing. Should have sung the bridge and the final chorus, not the first verse + chorus. WASTED.

But never mind. I shall hope that someone within my friend circle got in. I'll still be happy for them. Since I have no hope already. *cries*

Actually recently my emotions aren't that stable. Probably Tegomass is really that influential. I don't know. Things are happening in my workplace. There are people whom I think I can't get along with. Someone is leaving. Argh. I'm not improving at all. That's like the thing which really troubled me so much.

Full day out with Mai tomorrow. Shall let everything off and enjoy myself! Spending a bomb too. Argh. Money.

I want N86!! *laughs* Get me a phone already!

The end.

EDIT: Probably I shld have sung "Precious". ........... -______-||

Because I'm lazy

I've decided to:

1. reply all the tags here
2. update in short forms and probably point forms again
3. type as little as possible
4. still renew my schedule (finally)
5. end this post asap.

1.

イーファさんへ

昨日見てみました！山Pはすごく格好いいし、バスケットも上手そうです！でしょ？

To Crestryn:

Thanks! Hehe. I hope I can get into the finals or something! *laughs* But I'm just trying my luck too so.. Hehe.. I saw your performance too~ :)

To Star:

*laughs* Because I joined the competition for the prizes?

To Xuan:

I informed them already~ Sunday coming!!

2.

• listening to tegomass songs~ Yeah!
• i'm tired
• I'm going to do something soon! Look forward!
• Chose Sai Ai :)
• Hope I can sing well
• Slacking
• I want to sleep! But I have to wait for my dl to finish~

5.

I shall end now! Bye!

Precious or Sai Ai?

Well, it has been a long time since I last updated. And also, I'm a little lazy in typing lots, since I need to sleep in a few minutes time and I have a course at 9am later. So, everything short in point form.

• Back to Bugis again
• Saving money yet spending more money than I should
• Planning a little more for my Japan trip finally
• I want to win the tickets to Tokyo!!
• Please tell me I can change song!
• By the way, the previous 2 points are referring to the following point.
• I joined Bunka Idol
• For the sake of the prizes
• But I admit,
• I want to try singing
• *laughs*
• So tell me, Precious (Ito Yuna) or Sai Ai (KOH+)
• Because I chose Yuki no Hana (Mika) and I'm regretting it now
• Too difficult a song
• And my singing really sucks
• Argh
• I want the prizes!
• So, hope that I can get that 1/100 chance to win
• As if.
• Audition coming soon
• 2 weeks time
• Tomorrow I shall make a trip down to ask about changing song
• *laughs*
• That's all!

Because I miss "mo li" so much.

101-takoyaki, 102-ebi puri2 age, 103-ebi tempura & mango harumaki, 104-tori isobe age, 105-ama ebi, 106-shitake karaage

201-seafood salad, 202-ceasar salad, 203-ebi & bacon salad, 204-unagi tofu salad

301-soup of the day

401-crunchy salmon maki, 402-spicy tuna maki, 403-unagi california maki, 404-tori maki

501-seafood pizza, 502-mushroom cheese pizza, 503-teriyaki chicken pizza, 504-curry mashed potato pizza, 505-unagi mushroom pizza, 506-hotate mentaiko pizza

601-rosti with pork sausage, 602-rosti with hamburg, 603-japanese curry rosti, 604-plain rosti, 605-additional egg

701-beef curry omu rice, 702-grilled chicken curry omu rice, 703-tonkatsu curry omu rice, 704-ebi fried curry omu rice, 705-pork chop curry omu rice

801-vongole soup udon, 802-seafood udon, 803-niku soup udon, 804-kinoko horenso udon, 805-pork shabu udon

901-wasabi tenderloin steak, 902-garlic steak, 903-wasabi chicken chop, 904-kinoko pork chop, 905-hamburg steak, 906-salmon steak, 907-fish and chips

1001-teriyaki chicken burger, 1002-ebi fried burger, 1003-unagi rice burger, 1004-mushroom cheese burger

1101-kinoko aglio olio, 1102-sakura ebi wafu, 1103-, 1104-salmon ikura wafu, 1105-tori katsu cabonara, 1106-butter corn and asparagus carbonara, 1107-tsukune carbonara, 1108-seafood & avocado carbonara, 1109-ebi & spinach tomato, 1110-buta tomato cream, 1111-arabiki cheese sausage tomato cream (with edamame), 1112-vongole soup pasta

1201-macha kakigori, 1202-mango kakigori, 1203-maron kakigori

1301-plain waffle, 1302-waffle with ice cream, 1303-cara waffle

1401-cara thick toast, 1402-macha azuki thick toast

1501-tofu cheese cake, 1502-goma cheese cake, 1503-macha azuki cheese cake, 1504-blueberry cheese cake

1601-macha zenzai, 1602-goma zenzai, 1603-tomo zenzai, 1604-ice cream & toast

1701-milk macha float, 1702-lychee float, 1703-yuzu float, 1704-oolong float, 1705-mocha float, 1706-coffee float, 1707-coke/sprite float, 1708-macha azuki smoothie, 1709-strawberry smoothie, 1710-mango smoothie

1801-macha cino, 1802-macha latte, 1803-hot yuzu tea, 1804-hot ocha, 1805-long black, 1806-mocha, 1807-cafe latte, 1808-cappucino, 1809-expresso, 1810-hot choco milk, 1811-baby cino, 1812-earl grey tea/english breakfast/camomile/peppermint/blackberry

1901-yuzu tea/green tea/oolong/lemon/blackberry, 1902-yuzu soda, 1903-iced coffee, 1904-apple vinegar, 1905-coke/sprite/coke light, 1906/orange juice/lime juice

2001-asahi beer, 2002-tiger beer, 2003-hot sake, 2004-ume shu on the rocks, 2005-ume shu soda, 2006-ume shu cooler

Because I miss "mo li" so much. 

I guess no one can understand what I typed above. *laughs* At the same time, I can't believe that I forgot 1103. Argh. I shall recall till I can remember that item!

I'm still wishing for miracle. And.. 

I don't know anymore. That will be all.

Messed up

I have not told everyone yet, but I'm transferred to Cine branch with effect from today. In fact, yesterday, since it is already Thurs now.

With this and all the things concerning my Japan trip, I admit I was totally messed up. My mood was unstable and all. And that explains why I didn't update for a while.

I did not tell anyone this, but I totally hate to return to Cine. Because I've grown to love Bugis so much.

Today, I was supposed to work from 12 to 9 at Cine. But due to the sudden transfer, Bugis couldn't cope and had to get me to work during the night. So. I went and work for my last time in Bugis.

Actually, I lied. I ended work at 4 at Cine, and was supposed to start at 7 at Bugis. I took an hour to eat in Cine. And I even walked to Bugis instead of taking train. Yes, because I want to save on my transportation as well as exercising? And I expect myself to walk for a long time before I reach Bugis. But the truth is, I wanted to use this as an excuse to reach Bugis early. I reached there before 6 in the end. I didn't intend to reach that early, but I intended to reach around 6 to 6 plus and slack around. And I wanted to tell the people there the reason why I reached early was because I didn't expect myself to walk that fast and reach so fast. And the truth was, I just wanted to spend more time with them.

Then I reached there, and I totally... I don't know. I can't really tell what I'm feeling right now.

So anyway, timetable on the right is updated, with my new timings.

GUILTY

I'm feeling guilty, because since a month ago, I have not done anything other than buying and reading the guide for Tokyo. I halted my study plan of the railway system, and the JR pass. I did not update anything about my Japan trip.

Worst of all, I only saved my working salary for this trip. I didn't really scrimp on my daily allowance so that I can have more money for this Japan trip.

Actually, I still have more bad ideas. Sorry Aggie. 

I'm actually thinking of going Japan for more than 14 days, which can be around 20 days or even going to a month? I don't know. If I can get enough money for this, I'm really planning to do it. Because I heard it isn't easy to tour Japan within a short trip like 10~14 days. So I'm really thinking of extending my days in Japan to fully experience the life in Japan. As well as tasting the food and enjoying the sceneries? I thought going earlier will probably be better so that I can adapt to the weather and all before meeting Aggie. Then extending my days after meeting Aggie just in case there are things I wanted to do but not yet done? That was what I thought. Still thinking hard on this. Because this means, I need more planning, more determination and more money.

Actually, you know what? I should just email Aggie and ask her. Really. I'll do it rightaway.

Atashinchi no Danshi

I like this drama! Satoru and Masaru (?) so cute!! Seriously, they have to make everyone fall in love with Chisato (except Sho since he has a son already)! Then it will be so nice!! *laughs*

I have to sleep. So I'm sleeping!