rant

.... during saturday, Mai called me.. originally, she was supposed to meet me on fri to pass me her wish for koyama.. but she didn manage to finish her card on friday, and so she planned to meet me on saturday instead.. well.. saturday i was paranoid about chicken pox if everyone still remembers.. *laughs* so on saturday, i assumed that she was going to meet me.. and i planned to see the doc around 7+ in the night as well..

just so nice, she called at 7+.. and as i picked up the phone, i couldn remember the conversation much, but it sounded rushed.. and the thing she asked was, if i can meet her in the morning on sunday for the card.. because she was outside with her mom.. the main point is, i only realised it NOW.. the emotion i felt during the whole phone conversation.. it was disappointment.. i knew that the moment i saw the call, i had the intention to ask her to accompany me to the clinic.. but instead, i felt disappointed that she couldn even meet me at all.. and i realised i sounded harsh on the phone.. i remembered how harsh i was, but strangely, i didn remember how she sounded.. she msged me later to apologise for being rude.. but i had no impression at all.. probably i was in a daze that time..

*continuation from lj*

then sunday morning, finally i met her to get the card.. and she was in the mood to find things in orchard.. so i told her to meet me around 3 to 3:30 at orchard.. when i head to our meeting place, i msged her.. but i didn get any reply from her.. so i tried to call her, but all i got was "number busy".. i cant remember my emotions then, but i went to call her house instead.. and someone picked up, and it was her.. and she told me she was downloading songs.. when she was supposed to meet me right at that time.. i had so much idea of how long her bus journey was going to take.. but she promised that she can reach before 4pm.. so i waited.. instead, in my mind, i even gave her more than an hour, to 4.15.. i told myself, i shall not get angry and all unless she reaches after 4.15.. and right at 4.. she msged me again, to tell me that she was going to take more than 30 mins to reach.. i totally gave up.. but thank goodness she reached around 4:15..

however.. at one point i really got angry.. i'm sorry, Mai~ but anyway, i really got angry.. because she knew that i planned to meet her at 3+, but instead of getting out an hour before, she was still downloading songs at 3+.. why i couldn get through her handphone, was because she was transferring the songs to her handphone.. at 3+.. and when i asked why was she downloading and transferring songs during that time, she told me it was because of her sister, who wanted to search for nice restaurants which sell chilli crab.. and then when she was explaining, she said something along this line, "if you don't believe then so be it, i'm telling the truth and i just let out everything."..

the main thing was, she didn understand what i was furious about.. it wasnt because i didn believe her.. in fact, i didn doubt anything about her sister searching for chilli crabs.. it was the fact that she was still at home at 2+ 3pm downloading songs and all when she was supposed to meet me.. when during that time she was supposed to be out and waiting for bus.. well, that's because her sister used the com and slowed the downloading speed, that's why she was out so late.. nvm that already.. and after that so called small quarrel.. we are back to normal again..

it sounded like a tiff between couples.. eeeek.. so strange.. *laughs* i'm not a les am i? *laughs*

anyway, i cut the quoted part from lj, and the part which i said i didn post on lj, they are above.. all has passed.. soo.. no point dwelling over.. live everyday to the fullest then!