Cursed Paper of the Year

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yes.. my food preservation and processing paper was a disaster.. or not quite much.. but seriously.. this was the first time i've ever cursed while doing a paper.. from a "stupid" to something more severe like "what the heck", "what the hell", "TMD"(only chinese ppl know this one~), "wa lau"(dialects).. that's all.. cuz i also cant remember exactly what i've cursed.. no very bad ones like F***.. (*laughs* i think.. i'm a person who don usually scold vulgarities.. so its really very difficult to make me that fuming and cursing all the way..)

anyway.. the funniest thing is that.. this paper is DOABLE.. but i dono what got into me.. i jus cursed every time i moved on to the next question.. my clzmate who left right after me chatted with me for a while.. both of us were cursing even after the paper ended!! and we realised its really a very.. i dono.. its like, i was not the only one who cursed while doing..

amazingly.. today.. after i've left for bout 10 mins or so.. star called me.. she left the examination hall!! she has always stayed till the end for the past few papers.. and even if she leaves early, she would also be the last to leave!! but today, she left right after me as well!! then she said something like, "I do until frustrated... ..." correct me if i'm wrong ah~ haha..

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actually i'm living.. *laughs* but i update over at lj not here.. and i realised.. probably, i wont fangirl here that much now.. since there arent many (or none to be exact) fangirls over here.. suddenly, i have so much doubts about friends.. i'm again wondering why friends exist.. and many many other things.. i'll probably do a proper post when my exams end.. one last paper on wed..

i really have lots of things in my mind.. i wanna clear then all.. doubts about friends.. wonders about memories.. trustworthiness.. if i'm really on the right track of life.. am i wasting time? am i doing meaningless things? do i really have a life? i really wonder..

frankly.. i'm lost.. when you get to know more politics in this world, the less happier you'll be.. a chat with grace last night was enlightening! i mean.. it has been a while since we've chatted.. and we really went in depth.. probably, i shldn think too much..

It's better not to know EVERYTHING.

anyway, thanks xuan!! you made my day on saturday!! and yes, though i'm pessimistic, i'm still looking so much forward to it! hope it can come true!^^