No Life

well, i read some blogs jus now.. and suddenly i realised something.. I Have No Life.. this is saddening enough.. *cries* calvin had been trying soooo hard to tell me that i have no life, and i didn realise it till now.. how nice..

to me, no life refers to living without paying attention to what is happenin around one.. argh.. recently, what had i really paid attention to? idols, school, computer/laptop, internet, idols.. what else? this is what i mean by no life.. *devastated*

i certainly have to thank this person who made me realised this.. after reading her blog entries, i realised she did many reflections.. what happened to me? i used to reflect on many things.. look what idolism has done to me.. i totally became someone having no life.. (though i'm not stopping this fandomlism.. haha..) well it seems that she faced many obstacles during these few years.. well, we used to be good friends.. so it sort of.. strange.. readin her blog entries, with the thought of not being her friend anymore.. i even had to change the way i address her now.. cuz i'm not comfortable with the name i used to use to call her..

maybe i shld use the chinese blog to type out all these.. cuz i know i cant express well in english.. but i'm trying hard here.. anyway.. i think i still know how she thinks and acts.. i'm jus a passer-by in her life.. so.. i'm thankful that she made me think so much after reading her blog..

*blank*

i totally dono how to organise my thoughts now.. i'm kinda lost.. i know i have work to complete.. and i will after posting this.. i jus feel that.. i need to post something.. hmmm.. how bout.. friends? well.. i've always been wondering very much on this.. and finally, i have the chance to address this topic.. (again)

*typing* *deleting*

i dono what to write.. got so many thoughts running in my head, but i cant piece them out into words.. maybe, i'm jus suffering from an emotional fatigue.. well, from time to time i suffer from fatigues.. physical, mental and now emotional..

maybe i'll jus talk bout no life.. easier.. yes.. i have no life.. maybe i shld get one.. argh.. and i realised, i muz move on., so many ppl are moving on, but i'm still stagnant.. i think i'm getting influenced by the fact that some of my JC friends are already moving on, thus making myself stress over these little things? A levels ended.. so i guess some of my friends went back to YT to work.. wow.. i got amazed by this..

anyway, i went to complete my report before coming back on this post.. and.. i have nothing to say..

lastly, my form teacher of 3E7 and 4E7 is getting married.. but i'm still wondering if i shld go.. so.. ya.. omedetou!!