help

alright.. i'm so mentally stress.. i think.. i'm not going to do ordering anymore.. argh.. everything is getting wrong!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. i wanna vent.......................................... i'm so going to stop it.. frankly, i think she's hiding something from me.. and i think something fishy is going on.. i jus doesn wan to point that out.. i dono.. maybe i really didn trust her much, for me to say such kind of things..

how can i carry on? i dono.. i feel like, i'm cheating on other ppl.. i dono.. argh.. i'm not going to do it.. i can do it occassionally, but i'm not going to continue it.. i can return all the things to her, i jus wanna stop it..

maybe then my life will be back to normal again.. i can only vent this here.. argh.. i'm feeling so tense.. i mean.. i dono what i'm doing practically.. this thing is driving me mad.. i wan to stop all these.. hopefully i can as well..