Meme!!

01. WHERE DID YOU BEGIN 2011?
SKD Bugis, sick, doing month end inventory.

02. WHAT DID YOU DO IN 2011 THAT YOU'VE NEVER DONE BEFORE?
Hated someone so much, couldn't work with those people, had a crush on someone, wrote a complain letter to boss, transferred to a new place, transferred to another new place again, resigned, rot for almost 1 month, found a new job, attended D&D and started putting make up.

03. DID YOU KEEP YOUR NEW YEARS' RESOLUTIONS, AND WILL YOU MAKE MORE FOR NEXT YEAR?
I once made one resolution about not waking up later than 12pm. I think that's all. And I never stick to any resolutions.

04. WERE YOU IN SCHOOL (ANYTIME THIS YEAR)?
Language school?

05. DID ANYONE CLOSE TO YOU GIVE BIRTH?
No.

06. ANY NEW ADDITIONS TO YOUR FAMILY?
More birds?

07. DID ANYONE CLOSE TO YOU DIE?
Of course not!!! Choi!

08. DID ANYBODY YOU KNOW GET MARRIED?
No idea. Koda Kumi?

09. WHAT COUNTRIES DID YOU VISIT?
Japan!! Hokkaido yo!

10. HOW DID YOU EARN YOUR MONEY?
Work la~

11. WHERE DID MOST OF YOUR MONEY GO?
Johnny's. Actually it's NEWS and Pi.

12. DID YOU HAVE ANY ENCOUNTERS WITH THE POLICE?
Think I kena checked once at my void deck chatting with a friend.

13. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE IN 2012 THAT YOU LACKED IN 2011?
Personal time! :) Then more money to do more things! Yeah!

14. WHAT DATE FROM 2011 WILL REMAIN ETCHED UPON YOUR MEMORY, AND WHY?
2011, 10, 07. And it's not even my birthday. Because RyoPi announced that they were leaving NEWS. *cries* And when there was the Tohoku Earthquake and Pi's SGSB concert and my birthday and more...

15. WHAT WAS YOUR BIGGEST ACHEIVEMENT THIS YEAR?
Resigned and got a new job?

16. WHAT WAS YOUR BIGGEST FAILURE?
Not resigning earlier.

17. DID YOU SUFFER ILLNESS OR INJURY?
Yes. That big blue-black on my knee that took about 2 to 3 months just to heal~

18. WHERE DID YOU GO ON HOLIDAYS/VACATION?
I have no holidays. If I do I will definitely go Japan!

19. WHAT WAS THE BEST THING THAT YOU BOUGHT?
SGSB Bag? :) Very useful!

20. WHOSE BEHAVIOUR MERITED CELEBRATION?
Hmmmm...

21. WHOSE BEHAVIOUR MADE YOU APALLED AND DEPRESSED?
Ehhhh....

22. WHAT DID YOU GET REALLY, REALLY EXCITED ABOUT?
Hokkaido trip with Aria at super cheap tickets from SQ!!!

23. DID YOU MOVE ANYWHERE?
No..

24. WHERE DO YOU LIVE NOW?
Same..

25. WHAT SONGS WILL ALWAYS REMIND YOU OF 2010?
LIVE album. Actually Sakura Girl and One in a million as well. Then Fighting Man.

26. COMPARED TO THIS TIME LAST YEAR, ARE YOU:
A) HAPPIER OR SADDER?
Happier because I've changed job. Sadder because of NEWS.
B) THINNER OR FATTER?
Fatter. Argh.
C) RICHER OR POORER?
Poorer. Because no job for a month and still in debt.

27. WHAT DO YOU WISH YOU'D DONE MORE OF?
Initiate meet ups with close friends. More attention on my fandom.

28. WHAT DO YOU WISH YOU'D DONE LESS OF?
Spending money on food.

29. HOW DID YOU SPEND CHRISTMAS?
At Brenda's. Actually that's eve.

30. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR CHRISTMAS?
If I can, probably a trip to Japan or NEWS to be 6P again~

31. WHERE ARE YOU SPENDING NEW YEARS'? AND WITH WHO?
At home, alone, with Johnny's though.

32. DID YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH 2011?
Is crush counted? Oh I thought you meant in 2011. No. I fact I hope 2011 can restart or something~

33. HOW MANY ONE-NIGHT STANDS?
I wish I had any.

34. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVOURITE TV PROGRAM?
Nothing. Didn't watch anything. Seriously.

35. DO YOU HATE ANYONE NOW THAT YOU DIDN'T HATE THIS TIME LAST YEAR?
I guess no more.

36. WHAT WAS THE BEST BOOK YOU READ?
Didn't remember. Too many manga and too little NEWS books to read.

37. WHAT WAS YOUR GREATEST MUSICAL DISCOVERY?
AudioTechnica lovely headphone and MP3.

38. WHAT DID YOU WANT AND GET?
Want an android phone, and got.

39. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVOURITE FILM OF THIS YEAR?
Ashita no Joe?! :)

40. WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR BIRTHDAY, AND HOW OLD WERE YOU?
\Woke up, ready for work, went to work, knocked off early, and home. 22.

41. WHAT WOULD HAVE MADE YOUR YEAR IMMEASURABLY MORE SATISFYING?
More NEWS love and less NEWS breaking up news.

42. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONAL FASHION CONCEPT IN 2011?
From 0 to something finally. 0.1 I think,.

43. WHAT KEPT YOU SANE?
NEWS. Then it got me insane.

44. WHICH CELEBRITY/PUBLIC FIGURE DID YOU FANCY THE MOST?
NEWS la!!!! And Pi~

45. WHAT CONCERTS/SHOWS DID YOU GO TO?
Pi SGSB Concert @ Hokkaido Sapporo

46. DID YOU SEE ANY LIVE SPORTING EVENTS?
Not interested

47. WHAT POLITICAL ISSUE STIRRED YOU THE MOST?
Tin Pei Ling.

48. WHAT HAS BEEN YOUR FAVOURITE MOMENT?
Every moment that I spent happily~ Couldn't think of a particular one~

50. WHO WAS THE BEST NEW PERSON YOU MET?
Yin? But hey I met her during 2010. Eh... Actually it's either I didn't meet anyone new, or I really don't think anyone new I met is the best..

51. WHO HAS BEEN YOUR BEST DRINKING BUDDY?
Xuan?

52. WHO DO YOU MISS?
NEWS... 6P NEWS...

53. FAVOURITE NIGHT OUT?
First time drinking with Xuan and Mai! But I do miss those times singing K with you know who...

54. TELL US A VALUABLE LIFE LESSON YOU LEARNED IN 2011.
Treat yourself better because you're worth it.

55. WHAT'S SOMETHING YOU LEARNED ABOUT YOURSELF?
Didn't know I'm so emotionally attached to NEWS.

56. QUOTE A SONG LYRIC THAT SUMS UP YOUR YEAR:
Everything from "Share". "Tatoe hanaretteta tte kokoro ha hitotsu ni tsunagatteru yo iru yo soba ni I promise you". From Pi. It doesn't sum up my year, but it sums up my feelings for NEWS.

Blah~

Why I choose to update here is because I felt my rant isn't going to be all relevant to my fandom. But most importantly, I really want to voice my feelings out right now. I'm feeling very hollow. Very very hollow. I'm not sure if it's because I just finished crying or what.

I saw Pi's promo papa pics from his Shanghai trip. He has such sunshine smile. So bright that I love it so much. That's all. I was admiring his smile, his stance, his everything. But not performance. I guess that's probably why I'm feeling hollow. Plus I was really jealous of those who could get near him and take photos and pass letters and cards and such. I wish I could tell him my feelings too. I wish he knows my feelings too. I wish I could meet him and all. I don't know. Actually all I wanted is to get his acknowledge every time we meet. That's all. Isn't it?

Anyway, never mind about the above. I was watching the doubutsuen show and was crying over those animal stories. Then I went to find out about Pi's countdown at Shanghai. Then I ended up feeling hollow even after the slight fangirling I had during the photo seeing. I wonder what's happening to me. I'm worried because I'm feeling lost suddenly. Aria is now at Japan enjoying her JE trip and what am I doing exactly? I wonder if it's because I slept too much that's why I felt very unaccomplished. By the way, having ... (I totally lost my train of thoughts and don't know what I wanted to write about.

So it is already now the second day of 2012. I just hope that I'll stay strong. So a few aims for 2012?

1. To go Japan again! Hopefully this time it's for NEWS again! A wonderful season with beautiful weathers!
2. Improve my house's living standard? Should be my room. *oops* Hopefully able to furnish my house with better appliances such as vacuum cleaner, induction hot plate, microwave oven, washing machine, Smart TV LCD, Blu-ray DVD player, air purifier/humidifier/ionizer...
3. To improve my Japanese speaking skills and overall language skills. To target N2 or N3 this year!
4. Slim down!!!!! Like finally, with a normal job please slim down!
5. Clear my debts by the end of this year!

So the above seems like mission impossible. Oh yes. I just remembered about the previous sentence left hanging. I think it was about me buying the IPTV subscription. So I was desperate finding ways to watch the JCD, I remembered about hearing IPTV from a friend and I went to do a subscription. I didn't know how to go about it and I was so worried as it was near the timing already yet nothing happened. Then I got an email with my user and pass and yes I was on my way to it! I think being able to watch Japanese TV also made me hollow. I switched on some show during the night yesterday and somehow it was noisy for me. And just now I totally did not watch the shows. However, when the show I was interested in was showing, it was really entertaining. So I reckon I'm a person who doesn't really like noise. 

And I wanted to write something about me liking animals, guys liking animals, crying over touching animal stories, what I really want in my guy and all. *laughs* Very superficial kind of topic going to be. But never mind about it.

So there was once I cried so hard because of the episode about the lady who was able to communicate with the animals and the various touching stories. Today I did not cry that hard because even though the stories were also touching, it wasn't as touching as that particular episode. Then Aiba was crying. In fact all guests were crying. So I thought, if it was translated and shown to my Dad, will he be crying as well? Then I went on thinking, I want my guy to cry with me if we are watching such videos. I want him to love animals as much as I do. And not to be afraid of gokiburi. So in the end, he must be very man. *laughs* Yet soft at areas like animals. 

That was all I thought. Really. Oh well I did think very very little of AB as well. Just a little bit. Because this coming Saturday night we are going to have steamboat gathering. Like finally. But I didn't really know what kind of feelings to bring. I'm already so firm that it's going to be a guy and guy, girl and girl thing. And you bet I'm so going to stick to Esther. But who knows I may want to just stick a little to TW as well. What I'm going to have that day will determine what I'm going to dress up like that night. I hope it's nothing so I'll dress  until so normal and auntie like. But on the other hand, I hope I really had something on so I can dress up just a little bit. How to slim down within 5 days? Have to wash laundry later when I wake up. 

I really want to put some make up on so hopefully. Who knows we might be going xin wang instead. Who knows only. Who knows we might not even meet suddenly. Whatever. 会いきれないけど会いたくない。This is getting bad. Somehow I am a little used to some words of Japanese and I can't really express myself well other than in Japanese. Such as 「迷ったら」,「見守ってる」 and more. 

Anyway I found a meme and I shall do it in a while. Short one. :)

K8?!

got influenced by aria. suddenly realised the song she used for her call tone is rolling coaster by K8.. and very nice!!! haha.. i never paid attention to any songs in puzzle except for half down. wow.. it's nice.. :)

EDIT 07:36:
My goodness, I listening to more songs.. like 365 nichi kazoku and more.. very nice!! don need to slp liao. gosh.. cannot.. *cries* it's a very heartwarming song. really.. NICE. :)

testing.. because i want to know how i type my spacing. and i realise it's with my index finger. and most of the time it will be my right's index finger. i wonder when will i use my thumb of my left hand.. hahah.. so special.. i never realise this until now. because i saw how that button is only clean at certain area, and i thought how come.. i wonder which finger did i use to type that part and it seems like only my index finger is capable of it.. using my thumb is almost impossible or rather i'm just so used to it it seems natural to me now.. and really i noticed it.. even though they say that using the thumb is more of the "actual" and correct one.. who knows.. this is just a random post for me to understand my habit better..

i'm still listening to music at such late hours.. or rather, it's nearing morning. so i gotta slp now. gosh. oyasumi

Atarashii Jinsei he ikou!

It's so late again!! Anyway, gotta sleep soon and I have interview tomorrow. Gosh. Nothing good to wear in fact. Just brace through it. And I'm gonna be better!! As in, towards a new life!! :)

I thought of the times I went Japan. Yet again. And now I'm so determined to make my life a better one. I shall get my ikoma job. Please let me get chosen for that job!!

That's all. :)

Update

I just want to do an update on every blog of mine, to renew it, especially for a new Mao. :) Anyway, I must be determined in changing my current life. I want to do what I want to do, and enjoy what I do. So, just these few days, enjoy, and I'll do a makeover of my life next month. :)

JAC here I come!!! Next week actually. So I hope I have a big chance. Please.

Just a short one first. And I'll start my updates again. :) Hopefully. :)

using my N8!! :)

May the good come, may the bad go

Well, my right eyelid has been twitching for the past 1 hour at least? If it signifies bad luck then I think I'll have bad luck for the next few years worth. Argh. Have I used up all my good luck during that moment where Pi's and my eyes met? Oh Pi I miss you so much!! *cries*

Alright, just wanted to write about my eye's twitching. Very scary. I better sleep now.

I can smile in my dream listening to D.T.F. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. Gosh. I'm really missing NEWS. NEWS. NEWS. *cries*

nihon e kita!

Yeah, I'm in Japan, Osaka, right now. :)

First day:
Arrived safely in Narita, took several trains to finally arrive in Osaka, Dobutsuenmae. Lost my headphone pouch + HP cable on the train. Strange. Walked the wrong way and finally found my hotel. Quickly bathed and to meet Anna in Domemae station. Confirmed the lost of pouch and HP cable. Unable to contact Anna because didn't know how to connect to internet. Used a pen to write on a piece of paper, saying I'm who and looking for who, just like how people do in the airport. Met Anna and flailed a bit. Went to buy concert goods. Too many concert goods too pretty. I almost bought all. It started to rain so Anna and I hurried into the concert venue. We were seated at different place, so wasted almost 2 hrs waiting for NEWS. Took out my goods to have a look and read the pamphlet. People beside me all came. I fell asleep. 20 minutes before the concert I got too tired, so I stood up all the way, and pressed the recorder. Concert started. (Can I cont with my concert things?)

~*~*~*
Concert started. I screamed at the flying ship. Then the globe. Then the place darkened. And the music started. Couldn't comprehend the song, but then Massu was shown on the screen. Love it because it's all their dance movements, but the shadow of them. So cool. With their messages. I remembered Massu's last line, "You と一緒". Then it became Tegoshi, with "Summer Time" BGM if I was not wrong. It became Ryo with "Akaku" if I was not wrong. Then it was Pi with "Hoshi wo Mezashite", and he said "I hope you enjoy tonight". Then it was Shige. Wait. I remember Tegoshi being weeeek instead of summer time? There was one person with weeeek. Ok, probably Massu (Sakura Girl), Tegoshi (weeeek), Shige (Summer Time), Ryo (Akaku Moyuru Taiyo), Pi (Hoshi wo Mezashite). I really did not remember Kei's. But I thought there was purple coloured screen? Alright, I shall believe in that fan report that Kei did not have any opening with songs.

Kei started the con, and he introduced Pi. Red balloon blasted, Pi appeared. Pi introduced Tego if I didn't remember wrongly, then Ryo, then Massu, then Shige and finally Kei. Yes, just as what the fan report said, they walked to the middle, and Koi no ABO intro started. Right after it was weeeek. Then they changed to pink jackets and Sakura Girl started. It was during weeeek, they had fun in 3s. TegoMassuKei and RyoPiShige. I laughed hard during Mon's weeeek. Because first they showed TMK, then RPS. But RP were together and totally threw S aside. S tried to stick to P but P just pushed S away. Poor S went to TMK (actually KTM, or KMT) and K totally pushed S away. You could see that face on S. *laughs* By the way on Sun, S sticked to P but it seemed very awkward. And on Mon P totally pushed S away. I like it this way, since they do as they wish, not like trying to act very very close but it was all an act.

So SG continues. And when it ended, the atmosphere and colour changed, and it went into Summer. Summer Time started. There were pink petals!! How I wished I was in the arena seat! That was for SG, sorry. Nothing special during ST. SG the camera focused on Massu's hand at the end. And I love how they were all singing live. Some doubts about Pi's "hakanai kara, kirei nan datte sa", shall listen to the recording again. Then the place turned red, for Autumn, and it was Akaku. Everyone was running everywhere. Then for Winter, Hoshi wo Mezashite was sung. Pi probably lip sync during that "yukou" part. But at least he sung live for many other parts. :)

They went back to the center stage, changed their clothes? Can I listen to the recording while writing all these? I should. Alright, so HwM ended. And they've already changed. In middle stage, with fire. Very cool dance. Really love the dance. Can imagine the dance right now. Then after that, Tegomass went away, leaving the 4s to chat slightly. By the way, on Mon's opening, when Ryo was introduced in that balloon, the effect was kind of too strong or something, and it totally gave Ryo a BIG SHOCK. Instead of saying hello and all. He was chanting "bikkurishita~" The feathers were blown into his hair. Poor Ryo.

~*~*~*~

Shall continue with the concert tomorrow. I will finish the first day and that's it. After the concert I met Anna again. We had dinner together, and we nearly got lost. *laughs* That Katsu don was good. :) Then we had a chat. And my first day ended with me going back to hotel. :)

Random

Just suddenly thought that I want to make great memories when I'm in Japan this coming month.

3 off days left, and I'm left with these chores:

-Shop for items
-Clean room
-Pack luggage

And many many small things like planning activities, planning budget, getting my concert tickets, worrying, anticipating, crying, laughing. More. *laughs*

Nevermind about that. Anyway, I hope to meet everyone before I go Japan! I don't know why but I feel like I have to meet everyone first. Will something happen and make me never come back? Gosh. Now I'm really afraid.

Lastly, I went to watch Liar Game already!! It was good! I had an enjoyable day with Star~ Thanks!

And I met an Ikemen in my restaurant! *laughs*

Alright, off to sleep~

Movie!

Yeah! A short post probably~ Anyway, just to update slightly on my status~ I'm going to Japan again! Then I watched a movie yesterday! I think it probably has been 1 year since I last paid for tickets to watch movies in cinemas. I think it was Harry Potter that I last bought tickets. I did watch some other movies but those were from tips money and never my intention to watch. Though it was not my intention to watch this movie yesterday too. *laughs*

I watched "inception"!! Alright, I didn't really want to watch it, but I thought I should just go for it since it is rare that Mai asks me out for movie. I've heard that "Salt" was good but not "Inception" so I wasn't really looking that forward to that movie. But in the end it was really a great movie and I enjoyed so much more than what I expected. I'm glad that I went for this movie and did not regret at all!! :)

Anyway please watch "Inception" if you're looking for a good movie. And next week, I'll be watching another movie, and this time round really out of my will, "Liar Game".

Watched the drama and looked so forward to this movie! Finally it's screening in Singapore!!! Must watch!!

Alright that's all. :)

I may still be a kid after all

Things are not going my way. Actually I know why, and what brought me to this state. I hate to beg and I had to beg. And after begging I didn't get what I wanted. I hate it. It's probably my pride.

Please.

I need a miracle.

A Short Leave

I got 3 days leave since Sunday, and I have to report for work tomorrow. I hope I'll be in a good state for work tomorrow. Est said she'll kill me if I come back sick and tired after 3 days leave. Oops. *laughs* Anyway, I want to update on this splendid day I spent with my dearest friends!

By the way Mai, if we had met today, I would have spammed you with all these as well, any more details, get them from me ok! *laughs*

Sunday I met up with Star to find a suitable cake for Crest and Jas's birthday surprise. Before that, I got to know my off day on Sat, so on Sat I asked Crest if she could meet on Monday. Then finally I got a "yes" from Crest and I panicked since I hadn't got Jas to say "yes" yet. It would be a waste if Jas was the only one who couldn't meet. Thank goodness. It was a very very sudden meet out for Crystallised seeing how we used to plan dates weeks advance.

I met Meizi the week before and I got myself a dress (sort of). So I tried to dress up nicely for Monday's outing~ :) I wore boots that are of 3 inches high I guess? My feet died that night. *laughs* Anyway I met up with a friend first before meeting crystallised. I was at Bugis and I was so embarrassed when I had to go Shokudo to fetch the bottle I left in the outlet on Sat. Because I was really unsure of my dresscode I guess? Anyway I went Ma Maison to have lunch with my friend first. The escargots were excellent! *laughs* I love their yoghurt the most!

Then I went down to Orchard being the earliest, not counting Crest since she was at PS around 1pm, 2 hrs before our meeting time at 3pm. The place we originally decided on couldn't serve our birthday cake and I had to source out for a place immediately. Thank goodness for Tonkichi. :) I made a reservation, had our cake kept before the rest arrived. Star and I were there waiting for Jas, Crest and Meizi.

My plan was, I told Jas we were celebrating for Crest's belated Bday, while I told Crest we were celebrating Jas's birthday in advance. So in the end myself, Meizi and Star were the ones who knew the real surprise. So when the cake was served, they were slightly shocked~ (I was hoping for more surprise, but too bad~)

We had a hard time finishing that last slice of cake. I gave up. *laughs* But good times don't last forever, soon enough it was already late and Jas had to go home. But the rest of us went on and we sat down in Ion and started chatting. And I suddenly commented that even 2 are already 21 and the other 2 are turning 21 the topics we chat on were still very shallow. But truly I feel that, it's amazing how we can still chat on such small and meaningless matters and get crazy and laugh on them. I really love how we chat about random topics.

Then we went on small shopping spree again before sitting down once more and chatted. This time we decided on so many names for Star since she wanted to find an English name. *laughs* You have to count on Mao for all these crazy ideas ok~

- Zoan - Zoanne - Zoanna - Starella - Esteeaira - Xylene - Pearline - Purlyn - Wedgeteber -

So many more good ones but I can no longer remember them. I'll let you know again when I remember them ok? *laughs*

So we had a good laugh on the trip home about names like "starella" and "Wedgeteber". *laughs* Not to mention my "diana". I really love to give you names that ends "na" or "ly". *laughs*

So that's all~ It's late so I shall stop here. Will update another time!

I've grown fatter

This post has nothing to do with the title above, definitely. *laughs* Well, I just thought I should really update once in a while, especially when this blog used to be my most updated blog. I guess I shall jot my thoughts down in point forms before I forget them all.

• My status and job
• My friends
• My idol
• Others

Well, I'm still working in the same place, the restaurant. Things are just going well, or probably not as well, or probably just too well, I'm not too sure. It seems like I'm still stuck in this state, and I'm not improving much, time to reflect. Some times it is really challenging because of the manpower we have had. There are things I enjoyed doing and working over there. I'm really glad that I've become part of the team there. But I think it's time for me to get a short break to freshen up before moving on with this job. Not considering a job change yet, but things are not definite. I shall get things to enlighten myself and think carefully before moving the next step.

As for my life, I practically have no life. Ok I do, but not much. I guess it is really due to the long working hours. I'm drained usually at the end of the day, and the next day comes another working day. The weekends that most people look forward to the most are the days I look forward to the least. The days I look forward to are off days and pay days. Due to this job I realised I've drifted away from my daily life and friends. I feel that it's not like I have many things to do or many tasks to complete, it's just that I don't like to rush things or complete things within a time frame that leads me to the state I'm at now. I think I really prefer to do things with my own pace. I may set a time limit but I wouldn't set a time limit just enough for the things I want to complete, I will set more time just so I can do things slowly. Somehow this reminds me of Blood Type A, which is very own pace. Am I also affected by my blood type?

Anyway, I only have 1 day off a week usually. And this day, I have to dedicate to many things that I want to do and I really find I have no time for them. Of course I can wake up early but somehow sleeping is also something that I want to do badly. *laughs* And speaking of this, I really neglected my friends by so much so much so much. It's not like I have many friends, but I can't handle just a few friends, let alone the rest whom I can't don't really keep a contact with. 

Just recently, I contacted a few friends, and it really made me feel nostalgic. I want to go back to the times where we were all so carefree. I'm not having a hard time definitely, but my some of my friends are. It hits you when everyone around you are not having the best time of their lives and yet you're complaining about the slightest thing in your life. Sooner or later I'll have to face different difficulties, but I'm still living in my own world thinking that everything is going well. It's so tiring to think of all the problems the world and your surrounding is facing. I'm not matured enough. I'm not ready for the world.

So, I'm really glad to contact these friends, and to know that at least they are still doing well with their lives, though they might be faced with different challenges. It's with these friends I realised that I'm really fortunate. I really don't know what I've done to have all these friends to stay by me. Why do I feel that I'll cry hard when I meet one of them? I want to do the same as what these friends has done for me. I guess I'll have to stay strong and become better so that these friends can count on me too. 

I've read that a woman only needs a few close friends for herself, and I am really fortunate to have these many close friends. These precious friendships that I once used to have are all coming back to me. They are overwhelming but I'm not complaining. I know how I treat friends and there are times which I don't really give good attitude or treat them the way they have treated me. I want to do more. 

Alright, have to move on as I need to get ready to meet Mai. But my main point here is, I'm glad I contacted my friends, and it seems like even though we've not contacted for months, we're still as close as how we were before. It's truly amazing. Somehow there are friends who are really bonded so well that even after a long time, they could bond like they have never parted before. I don't know what I'm typing already, let's move on.

And as you can see, my fangirling is no longer on this blog for long, it's not like I've abandoned my idol. In fact I've become more engrossed and I'm really spending more on them. I'm still looking out for their news and I'm still supporting them the way I can. Well, if I have gone Japan last year just for a concert, it should be clear that I'm still supporting them full force. :)

Anyway, just a small update. Pi is releasing his third single "One in a million" and I can sense an album coming soon next year!! :) 

I can't wait for the leaks to be out! I want to listen to the song fully!! I guess July is going to be a fruitful month for me! Happy!

Well, I really have to rush. Everyone please take care. 

New Hairstyle!

Yeah~ Just a small update on my new haircut!

Here are the pictures.. Actually I took many many, and there are some which I thought is not bad. でも、恥ずかしい～～！(Demo, hazukashii!!)

Well, I did want to have a new haircut and rebonding. But it was that nagging from my outlet that made me wanted it so much seriously I think. "Your hair is messy already~". There's this episode..

"Your hair today is slightly neat. Slightly only." the person said.

"Ya la, later 2 minutes later will get messy already." I replied.

"Now already messy." the person replied.

So irritating right!!! Finally I got a new haircut~ Hmph! Hahahah.. So that's all~ If anyone wants to see my new hairstyle, can try to get me out ok~ As in find me for outing and everything, I'll try my best to squeeze out my schedule~ Heheheh..

That's all!!

Failure

Whatever that is, I am.

Nothing's gonna change unless I change.

"You lose some, you gain some".

I know what I'm losing, but I don't know what exactly am I gaining.

Whatever the title is, I was, and I probably am.

...

updates

Well, because I haven't been updating, I shall update now. But seriously, I think I had 2 tiring weeks before this week. I want to rest soon, tired.

-Last 2 weeks had been holiday weeks, sales' crazy and we worked like bulldozers.

-I was back from Japan if you haven't known yet.

Can't think of anything else to type. But anyway, after these 2 weeks, I'll have more challenges to face and all. Most importantly, I think I'll be more exhausted than ever.

This is really the latest news and I only got to know it hours ago.

I'll be promoted with a pay rise.

Yeah.

But scary, and stressful.

What if I'm not competent?

Argh!

Anyway, good luck to myself.

And I love Pi~

Lastly, all JE fans who might come across this post, please take a look at this link about a project I'm holding now. Thanks!